Travels, Ramblings, and some good'ole Poker

My 3rd session w/Jared was amazing.  I'll cliffnote it later but it was something along the lines of realizing that my tilt session was inevitable and that there are things I can do to prevent such a thing from happening again.

Being indifferent to winning/losing - Aside from the fact that this is most likely not achievable/practical, I think it's an important part of being a human being.  I like to live my life emotionally.  There's nothing wrong w/feeling pain.  It's only because of pain that we reflect and improve in my opinion.  What Jared and I are working on is not to try and make me an unemotional machine but instead, we're doing what we can to strip away the excess layers of pain that I might give myself.  For instance, chastising myself when i have sessions like those or getting angry to the point where I start letting it out physically.  And you know what? This mentality is working out so well.  It's realistic and I feel much better about having that losing session.  I learned a lot about myself and some issues that I have, which are pretty embarrassing.

I actually appreciate humility so much more and it's a goal i really want to work towards.  The question of the month is: How can I be more human right now? 
(Jared used Andy Dufresne as a role model and I certainly agree with that image)

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Took a day off and then played on Saturday.  Had a nice session against a notorious bumhunter who sat me.  It was the perfect session to have.  I was down 3bi to some coolers and 1 really stupid stackoff but it was so clear to me that his knowledge of poker, and heads up poker, was far from complete.  It's what happens when you bumhunt or become satisfied with winning and stop improving.  Poker is dynamic, you either get worse or you improve, nothing is going to stand still for you.  The match was also great because the way I prefer to play matched up perfectly against him.  I completely ran him over to swing back some profit but more importantly I regained much of my confidence in knowing that I am an adept player.