April 30, 2010
Yesterday was an awful day. The 5/10 games were unusably good so I sat down and played. I ran real bad no doubt and dropped 100bb. I tilted some and made a few bad plays. All in all my game needs some work I think. I am lost in many standard spots and I feel I donâ€™t handle aggression well at all. I know a lot of theory but I feel my thought process at the table is weak. I play too fast, which I discussed in an earlier post. Of course itâ€™s a risk to overemphasize these problems when one is running bad.
It would be a help if I could get in better physical shape and have a richer life on the side. I think both these things would make me less frustrated in general and more confident. However I donâ€™t know how realistic it is atm. I suck pretty hard at â€œbuilding a good lifeâ€. Usually I can do projects like that for a week or two but then I start to decline.
This was a major blow and right now I feel pretty small. I think itâ€™s important that I do get back and play soon again though (tomorrow I think). Before blows like this has made me take breaks for several months, but thatâ€™s an expensive habit. Better to move down even all the way to 1/2 just to keep getting hands in. I think I need to work more on the side, but what I need more than anything is playing time.
This evening Iâ€™m meeting two friends to cook lamb and hopefully drink some red wine :). Feels good that I wonâ€™t have to sit alone in the appartment, because I feel petty crappy.