April 25, 2012
I am cleaning my house and I dislike it. On the other hand, I become a bit ZEN and I start to evaluate things that are going on.
At the moment, I don't have any poker money on-line. I witdraw my money from my pokerclient to play somewhere else. So inbetween I am just not playing and waiting for my money to arrive. Then I play again. I have always done it like this.
So I am cleaning my house and hear myself say: "Man, I would love to play a session right now". That would mean, that poker would interfere in me cleaning my house. It would mean I would be playing a session while I should be cleaning my house. If I had the chance to play poker, I would play a session. Cleaning would come later. Prioritys.
This got me thinking. A year ago I was obsessed about poker. I start to wonder how many times poker got in the way for doing something else. Something else I also might enjoy. Something else that might even be more important? I hate to admit that I skipped a class or two for poker (or atleast where to late in class). I hate to admit that I played a session instead of giving that extra hour for an exam. I even got late for family dinners because I could not quit my session.
This is bad. Back to the now, it's not like that anymore. I prefer sport above poker, i prefer studying above poker. And family is priceless. Nothing can take me away from seeing my niece growing up. Maybe I don't even prefer, but I see what's more important. It got me thinking about something else: What did poker bring to me that is positive?
It learned me how to work. I never really worked as hard as I do now. I spend my times studying (school and poker). I am doing my homework. Whenever I don't feel like going to the gym I still go. Life is a grind. For every moment of succes, there are so many hours of sickening, boring hard work. Is it fun to do your ev calculations? Well, I don't enjoy it all the time. Is it fun to row 2000 meters every freaking time when I hit the gym? Same thing, I don't enjoy it all the time.
All the time.. but I still go. It's about the big picture. Poker learned me to look at the big picture. And to get to that big picture, I need to work. Sure I would rather wach another episode of Burn notice, but is it going to get me where I want to be? Watch another youtube video about a kid that hits his balls into a brick is not going to get me where I want to be. Hell no. Fuck no! Poker made me from a lazy fuck into somebody that works hard. Every day i just try to do a small piece, like 0,00001%... I don't care .. See my progress in 10 years.
People overestimate what they can achieve in a year. People underestimate what they can achieve in 10 years.
I rather spend 2 hours a day playing poker for a year straight, then 1 monster session once in a while. I am pretty sure I will have put more volume at the end of the year.
Without poker, I would probably never got the work ethic I have now. I would have stayed home when I didn't feel like training. I would have watched another episode of Burn Notice instead of writing another page for my paper. I would have slept until 12 in the afternoon instead of getting up and BEING PRODUCTIVE.
I love how poker got in the way, but got me on my way at the same time. I think that's the biggest thing poker brought me. And, in the long run, that's way more valueable than any money can ever give me.