It's RIGGED!!!

I'm done with poker an hour early tonight so I actually have some time to spend on my blog.

I've said that I wanted to talk about me being super tired/falling asleep during my sessions.  It almost happens everyday for me.  I'll be playing my normal 12 tables and I'll be looking at the screen, but my mind is not there.  99% of the time I make the right move just by pure instinct,  Sometimes I'll play hands and not even remember what my hand was or I'll look at a hand and have played it all the way to the river and can't remember preflop or the flop or turn.

I usually get enough sleep at night.  I go to bed at midnight or just a little after and get up at about 8am every morning.  I wake up feeling rested.  It's just when I''m sitting at my computer.  Usually I feel sleepy at the beginning of the first sessions.  If there is a lot of things happening then I am more alert.  Sometimes working out before a session helps, but sometimes not. 

It really has to do with me being bored.  When I get bored I fall asleep. It happened in school, college, in movies or while I'm reading a book.  I guess the solution would be to buy energy drinks. I really am not sure if I want it to come to that because I dunno how drinking multiple energy drinks a day is going to effect my health. Plus I'll get addicted to them.  Been there done that and caffeine withdrawals suck super bad. I also don't want to spend the money. It will probably add up pretty quick.

I'm sure other people have this problem.  What do you guys do about it?

Now onto the more important subject of this blog. ( I really thought I was going to have a lot to talk about with my 'falling asleep' subject, but I really couldn't get running with it.) Ok, berating other players at the table. I'm talking about online of course. I have a super bad problem with this.  Sometimes I have a handle on it, but some days I cannot hold back. I don't know why I have such little control over myself when it comes to bad beats.  I don't go on tilt, it's just that I get super pissed off and I want to punch the player in the face. Like seriously.  I mean everyone experiences these horrible beats that come with poker and the crazy ways they happen.  For example there is this terrible reg that seems to have no clue and called me with AQ in a horrible spot (for him) when I had aces. Of course the flop comes QQx. I blew up.  I know he basically just tried to hand me his chips, but I cannot hold back.  When I get started with berating players in the chat, then it makes it 100 billion times worse.  It's not just regs tho, it's anyone.  I don't tell them how to play I just call them names and tell them how much of a great call they just made. Except a lot more vulgar.  I've always thought I was going to get used to getting beat and stop taking the losses so hard, but I can't it's not in my personality.  I don't get pissed at all the beats, it's just some of them. No telling when it will set me off. It just all of a sudden does.  I know I'm better than 99% of the players at the $6.50 level. The thought of them thinking they are better than me pisses me off.  When their AQ cracks my AA and it furthers their proof (to themselves) that they are better than me, it hurts.

My first impression of just about every single poker player is terrible.  I HATE them. It's the same way in life for me. I don't like you till I get to know you. It doesn't take much to change my opinion though.  One nice gesture will turn my opinion completely around.  One nice thing said in the chat at the poker table will erase all the horrible thoughts I had about a player. Prime example:  The player that I have talked about countless time in my blog.  I used to hate his guts.  He loads up all my tables all the time and I just plain hated him.  Two days ago, I see him trying to get my attention in the chat.  He said that he thought I was a good player and always has thought that way and was making pleasant conversation. I've berated this guy a 1000 times if I did it once.  I was totally confused, but he was genuinely a nice guy.  I couldn't believe it.  I thought he was out to get me and all of the things I've said about why I hate people.  I'm glad that he was more of a man than me and actually made conversation.  Now the guy I have the most hands against is actually on good terms with me.  He'll probably become my friend.  

I don't like hating everyone that I don't know. It's depressing.  I wish I could change, but it probably won't happen because I have been this way my whole life.

Now! Let's get to the results of tonight. Played 109 games. Made about 10 buy-ins.  My last two sessions sucked and I was getting beat bad. Overall I am very satisfied with the results.  This month has been crazy. I haven't looked at my roi yet and I don't plan to till the end of the month.  Poker has been going great the last two months. Just great.  Staying down at the $6.50s has really allowed me to improve my game dramatically with out the stress the $12s bring. I'm making money at a pretty constant rate.  I am not worryingabout not being a winning player because the colume that I have put in the last couple months has proved that I can achieve a decent roi.  It feels good.

Tomorrow I am getting bought into a $125 live tourney.  There will probably be around six or seven tables.  It is at my local casino that I have talked about in my previous blogs.  I know everyone. I am better than everyone. So hopefully I can come out with some money.

I'm not going to talk about the Mariners too much, but all I have to say is that it was a wild couple of nights with Ken Griffey hitting that game innig single and Scoring 15 runs last night.  They lost 2 to 1 today with a man on first and third and Griffey on deck.  It hurt pretty bad, but oh well I'm used to it.

Enough rambling, hopefully I'll be ranting about how I just won a couple grand tomorrow night.  See ya.

RIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGED!