February 23, 2012
I had a fight with my girlfriend the other day and decided to play poker to take my mind off it. I tried reading a book and watching tv but couldnt stop thinking about the argument I had so decided to play poker. I was actively thinking how I am in no emotional state to play decent poker and knew it was a terrible idea. I even imagined tommy angelo telling me not to play poker right now. So it was like watching a car crash in slow motion as for some reason I fired up 4 tables at my usual stakes.
The session only lasted 30 minutes. Thankfully damage to my bankroll was limited, probably since I was aware that I would not be making good decisions. I quit the tables when I became angry at another player after losing a hand. It was quite a shock since I haven't tilted playing poker in years and emotional control is one of my strongest areas. Luckily the shock of being tilted meant I quit fairly early.
It really is amazing how the human brain works.