December 11, 2011
Bored
I'm bored of poker. I haven't played a single hand in days.
"But we're only in the middle act!" "What about the 50K challenge?"
I know. I just. I dunno. I feel a huge nothingness right now. I wanna smash that alarm clock.
I defragged my hard drive last night while staring at the progress screen. Then I organized my bookmarks. Then did about 10 minutes of poker drills. Then took a nap. Then woke up and researched LCD screens that I can't afford. Then went to bed.
George Leonard write in Mastery: "The essence of boredom is to be found in the obsessive search for novelty. Satisfaction lies in mindful repetition, the discovery of endless richness in subtle variations on familiar themes."
But knowing this doesn't stop me from getting bored of the grind at times. Or should it? Maybe I just don't get it, still. Or I'm using the wrong language in my head. I could try to
bust through this lethargy
by watching motivation videos; yet, what usually happens is that I end up watching motivation videos for 3 hours.
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