30k in 6 months

it is pretty annoying atm. after I just had a 30 buyin downswing last month, this month starts exactly like the last one.. I really try to keep cool, but if those situations come up like all the time, it is hard to stay focused. so you get an idea of what I'm talking about, here are some hands:

http://weaktight.com/3727929

I think the river is the only street you might find a c/f. but it was HU, and I don't see him folding Q9, so I have to ship the river.

http://weaktight.com/3727931

Opponent is a big fish and if he 3b that big, he always has a hand he wants to go with. so no need to make my 4b small.

http://weaktight.com/3727934

I think he missplayed his hand pretty bad. calling preflop might be ok, but I think the flop c/r without history is just horrible

http://weaktight.com/3727936

I was thinking about folding, really. If you run like I do, it is somewhat tough to see him not having the nuts here, even he is a spewtard

http://weaktight.com/3727941

thank god you weren't playing deep

http://weaktight.com/3727945

flop b/3b is ok, too, but I thought he would continue with more of his bluffs on the turn, so b/c > b/3b

http://weaktight.com/3727946

Sets just won't win

http://weaktight.com/3727948

How can he not have flopped the nuts vs my nuts?

http://weaktight.com/3727949

Turnshove is so sick for value^^

I could post way more hands, but it is just a big lol.. nl400-nl1k only, and not having a chance is so dirty.. no fun and I really wonder, when the last time was I really enjoyed playing poker for a few weeks. obv, the more hands you play the more often you get to loose >20 buyins, but this gets a little bit to unreal. It is so sick if you see all this awesome games running, and you are the one who can't win a single pot. in 2 weeks like all the fish have lost their money again and I have to fight with the regs again.. god how I hate it..