July 28, 2011
Been keeping on the study. Just got done reviewing my database of hands. Went over every hand lost over 20bbs and learned a lot about myself. It took me about 4 months of hitting it every night. The great news is that it can all be fixed and will be fixed. Theres really no bad news to it. Just really really good news.
Took a break during NBA playoffs and it was kind of hard to get back into it but I'm glad to say I'm back. Playing a little 2/4cent on Cake. Sold some gold cards and made enough there to 1 table. I told myself I'd 1 table 2000 hands then re-evaluate where I'm at. I'd really just like to play PLO but w 3 buy ins thats somewhat suicidal.
My money is still stuck on FT so until thats released I will have to do what I can with what I have and stay sharp.
Lifes great but still miserable at my job. Going back to school here in the fall. It will be like a mini vacation from this place. Money is ok and don't think I will make better anywhere else at this time. I have a plan for the fall. If everything goes smooth I will be out of here by January/Febuary. Things are coming together for me its just a process. Focusing on the process helps me get past all of this.
Been raging a little too hard these days. Its been a hell of a time. Instead of fighting it I have just been going with the flow. I've been getting girls here and there but still a bit lonely. Would like a gf but holding out for a specific type. She needs to have a hippie mentality but doesn't need to smell like one. I'm not looking for hot, just cute, and someone who is caring. Getting sick of these random hook ups with girls I don't even like. Leaves an empty feeling.
Tried to contact my ex gf but she still won't talk to me. Makes me sad to think that I hurt her that much where she can't even talk to me anymore. I saw her at H burger downtown and she looked frightened, like a get the fuck away from me look. It was around that time my bender started up. It really threw me off and for months after I had 0 self confidence. I wish I could talk to her again. She lives downtown apparently but sounds like she has moved on.
My first concert will be August 25th. my headliner just cancelled on me but I think it will be ok. We probably won't sell out with out him but it will be a great learning experience either way. I have been doing reviews for a website called Swaager.com. We will be getting into management and more show throwing in the near future.
I guess thats all right now. Watching Apex predator w blah 234 and orsettos board texture series. Also been reviewing Quickpro notes. If you haven't checked out Quickpro you're missing out. Now is the best time to study because when the games come back they will be better than ever. If you study then so will you.
Watch this. I will be fully prepared. I have a new online alias but I still don't want to reveal what it is. I don't want someone to steal it but its really really bad ass!.
ummmmmm I guess thats it for now.