Back To The Trap House

The Streets=2NL

I decided I'm going back to 2NL. I've been reading these great DC community concept atricles and it made me realize I cycled back into the same mistakes. Cycles, these are important. Its important to map out your cycles so you can see where you make your mistakes in life.

I got caught back up into moving up again and not focusing on the techniques. I played well at 5NL, good at 2NL and spewed at 10NL. I took a short stack shot at 50NL, 100NL, 200NL and 400NL. Bankroll suicide........

I thought with my coaching/training I could do just fine. I did, kind of, but thats not the point. If I lose that discipline while playing 2NL, 5NL and 10NL I'm setting myself up for a monumental collapse when I get up to 100NL, 200NL and 400NL......

Its ironic though, that the one thing we all strive to become is what we have to keep in check to make it there. I have this vision of myself of who I am and who I want to be but that very image is what is hurting my game. Its a constant wrestling match between yourself and ego. That degenrate side we all have, the one that says just one more beer, one more hand, one more cigarette, another scoop of ice cream, some more crab legs at the buffet won't hurt, neither will that other can of Pepsi.....

It even falls down to putting that song on repeat over and over again. Snap out of it kid.....

Things have a better chance of falling apart rather than putting themselves back together. We all seem to forget that. The ego has no understanding of this. Were always swimming up stream, fighting the current. As far as we may get a bear may yet snatch us out of the water....ha

I've been telling my roomie for weeks, wait til I make it up to 50NL and 100NL, I'll have plenty of cash on the side to do what I want. I was mentally conditioning myself to lose.

All is not lost though. My roll on Stars is still plenty to play 2NL and 5NL. I'm beating 5NL steadily. There are many great things that will come from this experience. Maybe I missed a few things down at 2NL or reverted back to my old habits. I definitely just completed a down cycle in my poker game but in the past I would've ran my bankroll to $0 in disgust with myself.

This time I had the discipline to catch myself. While I slid I didn't slide that far. Its ok. I'll be just fine.....

This song is FUCKIN DOPE!!!!!