July 31, 2012
i'm at a crossroad in my life.
I feel so confused as to what to do.
i tried (and failed at) poker, in the end it wasn't the dream scenario - I would attribute naivety and life leaks to that. I went to Korea to work as an English instructor, fell in love with a girl here -but i am absolutely bored here in general.
I feel like I don't know what the best plan is for my future. By all accounts anyone who has met with me on a personal level just says 'you can do it' or 'you are gonna make it', but i'm now 25; no savings, no real plan, aside from 'keep travelling and see the world then make my mind up when the time is right'.
now i've heard myself say that dozens of times, it just sounds like a convenient excuse.
at the moment i plan on working online as an instructor for a Korean tutoring company. Thing is though, I don't have a big plan yet. It's just (again) so convenient. Give it twelve months and will I be satisfied? I doubt sincerely.
I need a goal, a vision, a mission, a purpose so to speak. It's a mixture of apathy and regret and potential yet unfulfilled that i'm in this state about, soju doesn't help the matter either.
this is a TL;DR but should you happen to cross this part of the interwbs, give me your perspective. Or just trololololol