So I've been playing and running well for the past 3 months, really. (DC ftw) My personality is such that I need to constantly watch my tilt and my feelings of 'entitlement' to a pot... as I'm sure most of you here relate with. Hell, we have a study group within a training site. lol. (Pimp, imo.) I have been doing great with meditation to control tilt, etc.
Anyway, so I got destroyed by the loose-passives last night. I had like 3 flopped straights busted by bullshit. 2 SNGs taken away from me by bullshit. (Whatever, end rant.) Regardless, it's nothing, really.
So I'm pissed and quit FT and shutdown my computer quickly, planning to go to sleep. Well, 5 minutes later I realize that I was already registered for another SNG and didn't 'un'register. *sigh* So now I need to reboot and check. Sure enough, it had just started. Okay, no problem, I thought. I had already considered this money 'spent' since it wasn't in my cashier balance as I grumble before shutting down, so I thought, FREEROLL. lol. not really, but whatever = tilt control. So, I'm bored with the one table at the start of the SNG and open a full ring table.
A few hands in, 5ways, I flop a straight again. I'm like, WOOT. It gets jammed on the flop, etc. HU to the river, the board fucking runner, runners my exact cards to the straight, killing me to any K, but I click 'bet' anyway in tempo like a retard. As soon as the river hits, I'm like, W...T...F! and look away from the screen, cursing the LP gods, and I hear the other player's "raise" jingle. I look back and click MUCK disgusted... and 5 seconds later realize that the board was 5 straight (some reason I thought it was 4 straight in my tilted haze) I probably just folded half of the pot away.
Oh well. I'm a good poker play and just wanted to post for the little public embarrassment to sear the lessons of yesterday into my head. I don't deserve to win, as Tommy would say, so I need to 'get over myself.' Just because we are good at poker doesn't mean we are going to win. Not in one session or week or whatever.
Regardless, I do fully believe I am lucky AND good, so bring it on, Loose-Passive Douchertons!
PS. I got second in the "freeroll" SNG, so there's karma giving me a kiss goodnight.