This is my actual state of mind, poker and life, after searching and studying a lot of motivation, self control and other related topics. I wrote this on 2p2 recently.
What is, in the end, the motivation for playing poker? I mean, why did I started to play poker anyway? I played my first Texas Holdem being total drunk with some friends and I liked the competition and the action. This amplified and I wanted to play again, and I started searching on google "play poker". Millions of search results showed me that I could play anytime from home. And I really started playing and I really enjoy playing my first 1k hands...
But then I sensed that I could win a ton of money from this. My motivation switched from playing for fun and action and competition to money, and not 50-50%, but totally. I need to make money from clicking the mouse at home, after work, as a second job. I just click and money will come my way. But not only money did not come my way, money flew away. And I started studying, digging, learning, reading, watching, but not for the game ... but for the money I was dreaming about. Then came the history I wrote above .
In my engineering world, semiconductor microelectronics, which is one of the most exotic fields, I can see two types of people, passion-driven and money-driven.
- The passion-driven ones do not care about the money, but they have really big money. They are called technical experts and they really are. Therefore they get paid a lot. Way more than even top managers.
- The money-driven ones do not care about the passion, they don't have enough money and they are never happy. They are not at all technical experts and they think they deserve more and more money. As a consequence, they never have mood for work or improvement, and they end up searching for a different job, where everything will repeat.
You cannot blame any of these types of human beings, but I think one can mindfully recognize he is on a wrong path, after all - unhappy - , then he should work to understand the problem (study, dig, read ...) and then work to solve the problem. We are solving lots of problems for different people, but we never take the time to solve problems for us.
The problem with being money-driven, or money-motivated, is that you will never have enough, and you will never be happy, you will never find Avalon. Parkinson's law states that if the income will increase, the debts will increase, and you will be ultra unhappy, unless you evolve inside.
Being passion-motivated will also never get you anywhere, because this is the game of life: it never ends. You must learn your entire life. But you can find happiness. The happiness of understanding a new concept, of applying this new concept, combining tens of concepts and advancing to a level of understanding where no man has ever gone before - this is where the true passion lies.
Another difference between the two approaches is how you deal with everyday's issues, especially with people. In a money-driven world, you will hate everybody who get's in the way. In poker, when a spew monkey plays like an animal he is and sucks out 5 buyins, it will not matter that you did the right play and you played +EV for the long tern, but you will only think about the money lost, you will tilt and destroy yourself on the long run. In a passion-driven world, you can understand the other human beings around you. In poker, they can be drunk, just starting, jacking off in the same time, reading or whatever, and the fact that they play bad is the good thing you should be searching for. On the real life job, you can forgive animals that lie about you and get in your way just to make themselves remarked by the right people, and concentrate on your passion and on your journey which you chosen from passion.
A few days ago there was a nice saying on Facebook: No one can motivate you unless you motivate yourself. It was a picture of a lamp holding it's own cable in it's hands and connecting itself to the network.
It all comes back to Motivation .