Few things from my side, with honesty:
- when I start the poker session, all I have in mind is to double my bankroll. Very bad goal, if no goal at all. This happens even after I read Road To Mastery and other books. And how I do it: for the moment I have bankroll for 5NL. I open 12 tables and play premium hands, and every 5 minutes I look at the cashier to see how I stand. Very very bad. Cure: set up learning/growing goals for the session, for ex: play 6 tables and practice starting hand chart, or cbet, or 3bet, no bluffs, fold when raised ... and so on. And play a fixed amount of time: 30 min. After that, close the session and analyze I it worked from the goals perspective.
- what I experienced last week (+17BB/100, 4 days in a row, tripled my bankroll) was indeed a heater. A huge one. I thought I was the chosen one to beat 5NL, but after +17BB/100 came -17BB/100, LOL. What I do NOT understand is why AA, KK, premium hands in general, lose one after the other, usually all in, vs J8off, 48off... and so on.
- Fur Elise is a hard piece to master. But to be able so play it correctly, the whole piece, in 3 month after first touching the piano is a big deal for me. This shows high potential. To master the piece takes another 3 years probably, which I OF COURSE quit :-)
I enjoy reading what you write here, so if you have any other advises for a small dabbler who tries to find the way out of the hole, I would highly appreciate.