I hope you have had a great year, it seems like it from all these social medias, Jackie binking tournaments etc. I think you would like to hear what I have been up to, and also i would like to thank you.
the things you learned me about following my instincts is huge, i dunno how much you realize this, i guess you know that its big, but heres what i have learned. I started to think about this and I found out that all of us are in one of 4 different states.
1. When we are born we are a blank page in our minds, we dont know anything and we are "free" in the way we think. ( This is why children can ask so interesting questions, they dont have theese mental blocks that most grownups have.) We are following our instincts and we learn how the grown ups do.
2. Then, during our childhood/teenage years we are affected by everything around us, and most of us arent aware what is going on, we might be afraid of hights (rats, spiders, public speaking, etc etc etc) just because our parents ( or our enviroment, but esp parents imo) are. This state can extend for the rest of our lives if we dont take us to number 3 on this list. If you look around you, how many people are really aware of whats going on, sure they want an Iphone or a nice car but they dont know why, they just want it bc they belive in things that arent real. Also, when a person is in this stage, they are very easily manipulated by media and everything around us, they are like a swamp just sucking everything up and not filtering anything, they get overloaded with information and they cant structure their thoughts at all. Once we start to question our reality, we might go to stage 3 Oh, This is important, people in step 2 often call themselves a "feelings person", ie they say they follow their feelings, only problem is that its not their feelings, its medias/parents/friends/work mates and just our environment that puts those "feelings" in their heads.
3. The logic state, ( also named cleansing state ) This is where we start asking ourselves and others one important question: WHY? Why do i want that Iphone, why do i want to live in the city, why don't i like hights, why dont i quit my job, why dont i ecercise, and the more question one person asks the more he or she will start to realize what really is important in life. During this period, we usually cant really stay here for that long because this is a pretty rough state to be in. Realizing that people around us lives in sort of a haze and they aren't just thinking by themselves at all. In this state we don't listen much at all to our "feelings" but we are more structuring our thoughts and question our believes. This state often means that either we go under and get depressed, or we move along to number 4.
4. The Instinct and logic state: This state is where I am starting to be today. After years of depression ( in state number 2 ) I learned how to be a very very logical man ( state 3 ), everything should be backed up by logic, but when I learned that I can follow my instincts, and that it could be a good thing, I tried to do it and guess what happened... I found out that in The Logic state I was taking out every little mental block that I had in my head, from why I dont want to talk on the phone- to being so confident in myself that i now know I can (and will) change the world. So when my mind really truly understood that I AM IN CONTROL, that was the biggest kick i´ve ever gotten. This is the state where your instincts can work freely and naturally ( as we humans were supposed to be ) together with logic and structure to make sure that we are doing the right things for the right reasons.
Also i want to point out a few things: Its a hard road to walk, confronting every fear that you have, and every negative side of your personality, but once a person starts to change one thing he will soon realize that it in fact arent a great big wall that holds us back, but instead its just our own ego.
Its like everything that ive learned the last 4 years have lead me to the right places, and now once i have reached state 4, my life is just escalating in so many ways. All my relations are 100% great (or at least soon will be 100%) Im having new ideas about business opportunities almost daily, im starting to write now, writers block are an illusion as everything else.
Im reading people in 10 seconds, I know exactly how they behave and whats behind it, I can sort of pin point who is happy and who isnt in a matter of seconds, im right over 95% of the time. As i said ive learned alot of things the last 4 years, working with you last year helped me to put everything together and after i met my dreamgirl about 6months ago, I could just let go of all the "hunting" thoughts in my head and just focus on whats important: LIFE
again, Thank you so much for last year, and if you want to discuss things further i belive I have tons of thoughts that you might find interesting, this theory above are just one of many, and im constantly developing them more.
I hope you are well, and I hope to hear from you soon.
ps. theory arent 100% finished and i didnt spend enough time to make everything perfect, but i hope you will get what im talking about