Freaky Styley

I'm officially a tilting reg and see this as the only big obstacle to beat NL20. Of course there are a lot of leaks i have, it's not a question at all. But even with those leaks I'd be a clear winner without tilt. What i win with hard work i lose so easily with dumb moves and I'm breakeven after 20k hands. At the beginning at Ongame i was very disciplined and made huge folds, but then i collapsed. 

It really scares me as i try my best, but still doing the big mistakes at the big allins when it screams that i'm beaten. My mind knows it, but my ego don't let it go. I got upset that the fish arrived and plays back. I'm very hard on myself that cannot solve this issue. It would be enough to beat variance without my bad play. I lose the big moneys in the big lost allins. So it's the big project i should solver right now. 

And the the big thing, that I've decided that i will buy some lessons from Inavacuum. I loved his Yin and Yang series, really like his approach, heard good about him and reached the point that a coach should fix my leaks i do from time to time. Furthermore i've got a lot of questions I'm uncertain about and face everyday. So planning to be active. He has a lot of experience on the Euro sites where i also play and it's also a big plus. 

And today won the biggest pot in my poker career. I had a reckless image, was running like 40/35 with continous aggression. One aggro LAG and big fish.

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players - View hand 1321384

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SB: $27.52
Hero (BB): $27.14
UTG: $24.51
CO: $14.81
BTN: $17.62

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is BB with A A
1 fold, CO raises to $0.60, 1 fold, SB calls $0.50, Hero raises to $3, CO calls $2.40, SB calls $2.40

Flop: ($9.00) K 9 T(3 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $6.80, CO raises to $11.81 all in, SB calls $11.81, Hero calls $5.01

Turn: ($44.43) 3(3 players - 1 is all in)
SB checks, Hero bets $12.33 all in, SB calls $12.33

River: ($69.09) 6(3 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: $69.09
SB shows Q K (PAIR KING)
Hero shows A A (PAIR ACE)
CO shows 9 A (PAIR NINE)
Hero wins $42.21
Hero wins $23.88
(Rake: $3.00)

And the bad play i talked about. Big lol to myself. I can make similar nice mistakes when it's so obvious that I'M beaten 

vol. 1. 

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 4 players - View hand 1321389

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CO: $14.86
BTN: $33.09
SB: $20.83
Hero (BB): $21.67

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is BB with K A
2 folds, SB calls $0.10, Hero raises to $0.80, SB calls $0.60

Flop: ($1.60) T K 7(2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $1.20, SB calls $1.20

Turn: ($4.00) 6(2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $2.50, SB calls $2.50

River: ($9.00) 4(2 players)
SB bets $16.33 all in, Hero calls $16.33

Final Pot: $41.66
SB shows T 4 (TWO_PAIR TEN, FOUR)
Hero mucks K A
SB wins $39.66
(Rake: $2.00)

vol. 2. 

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players - View hand 1321390

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BB: $41.02
Hero (UTG): $20.00
CO: $18.70
BTN: $20.51
SB: $46.65

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is UTG with K A
Hero raises to $0.80, 2 folds, SB calls $0.70, 1 fold

Flop: ($1.80) 2 T K(2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $1.40, SB raises to $4, Hero calls $2.60

Turn: ($9.80) 6(2 players)
SB bets $9.80, Hero raises to $15.20 all in, SB calls $5.40

River: ($40.20) 7(2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: $40.20
Hero shows K A (PAIR KING)
SB shows T K (TWO_PAIR KING, TEN)
SB wins $38.19
(Rake: $2.01)