Freaky Styley

My NL20 project is breakeven and 2 days crushed my results totally. Today was a nightmare, i was just never good. Even the RNG made some joke when i had 90% EV, or i had shitty river situations when i couldn't laydown. I had some tilt and fishes are making me crazy. And i play bad of course. 

It's even worse and more dangerous thing is that my confidence is absolutely  destroyed. What annoys me the most that total idiotistic plays are beating me. But i know, the problem is with me why i think this

The month:

The big lost pots from today:

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 4 players - View hand 1311600
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BB: $13.86
CO: $38.19
Hero (BTN): $19.70
SB: $20.95

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is BTN with Q Q
1 fold, Hero raises to $0.60, 1 fold, BB calls $0.40

Flop: ($1.30) A 3 J(2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1, BB calls $1

Turn: ($3.30) Q(2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $3, BB calls $3

River: ($9.30) 6(2 players)
BB bets $9.26 all in, Hero calls $9.26

Final Pot: $27.82
BB shows T K (STRAIGHT ACE)
Hero mucks Q Q
BB wins $26.43
(Rake: $1.39)

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players - View hand 1311602
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CO: $28.69
Hero (BTN): $19.20
SB: $22.32
BB: $19.68
UTG: $21.40

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is BTN with A A
1 fold, CO raises to $0.60, Hero raises to $2, SB calls $1.90, 1 fold, CO calls $1.40

Flop: ($6.20) 5 4 4(3 players)
SB bets $4.70, CO folds, Hero raises to $17.20 all in, SB calls $12.50

Turn: ($40.60) J(2 players - 1 is all in)

River: ($40.60) K(2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: $40.60
Hero shows A A (TWO_PAIR ACE, FOUR)
SB shows J J (FULL_HOUSE JACK, FOUR)
SB wins $38.57
(Rake: $2.03)

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players - View hand 1311603
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CO: $19.20
BTN: $19.18
SB: $20.92
Hero (BB): $19.40
UTG: $22.29

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is BB with J J
2 folds, BTN raises to $0.50, 1 fold, Hero raises to $2, BTN calls $1.50

Flop: ($4.10) 3 Q 6(2 players)
Hero bets $2.50, BTN raises to $10, Hero raises to $17.40 all in, BTN calls $7.18 all in

Turn: ($38.46) 3(2 players - 2 are all in)

River: ($38.46) 6(2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: $38.46
BTN shows 7 8 (FLUSH QUEEN)
Hero shows J J (TWO_PAIR JACK, SIX)
BTN wins $36.54
(Rake: $1.92)

Ongame Network $0.10/$0.20 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players - View hand 1311607
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UTG: $20.00
Hero (CO): $24.68
BTN: $19.70
SB: $29.71
BB: $35.03

Pre Flop: ($0.30) Hero is CO with Q Q
1 fold, Hero raises to $0.80, 2 folds, BB raises to $2.50, Hero raises to $6, BB raises to $35.03 all in, Hero calls $18.68 all in

Flop: ($49.46) 7 5 2(2 players - 2 are all in)

Turn: ($49.46) T(2 players - 2 are all in)

River: ($49.46) A(2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: $49.46
Hero shows Q Q (PAIR QUEEN)
BB shows K K (PAIR KING)
BB wins $46.99
(Rake: $2.47)