September 15, 2010
I've started playing poker again and what a great start! Â The time I took off from the tables to emotionally reset my brain has proven a success. Â I attribute this to my mental game coach Jared Tendler. Â We've only had two sessions so far, the second one I need to re-listen to again (lol), however my outlook on the game and my results has drastically changed again. Â From here on out I will be working on all aspects of myself as a poker player. Â Work ethic, mental approach, hand analysis~ These are all things I am once again going to work on. Â I feel like a new player again and it is an exciting feeling. Â I am going to forget what I can from the past and today I will start looking at poker as a whole new game. Â Rather than cursing myself for being a shitty player, I will start putting more emphasis on learning from my mistakes, keeping a cool head, and always looking forward, never down. Â Every step back will be two steps forward, this is my new mantra.
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Bam! My session yesterday. Â I got some action at 10/20, the majority against a newer reg. Â I'd say my style matched up perfectly against his. Â On the road to re-building confidence, there can be no better start than an uphill finish like this. Â For the next two months, I plan on putting in volume like this. Â Heh, I moved back to San Diego but aside from my closest friends, I have not advertised the fact that I am home. Â I've had an extraordinary two years in terms of self-development and it's time I re-look at my game and push myself to another level.
What an exciting match this was. Â 10/20 is a limit that has plagued me in the past. Â My first 3 attempts to break into 10/20 (1 being at 6m) have led to -20k sessions each, but you know what? Â That shit was out the window today. Â My only focus was to win and play the best poker game in my current capacity. Â After this blog, I'm going to download FWF's vid series against Sauce123 and see what I can learn from them. Â I met sauce a few months back when I was in Canada and every time I talked poker with him, I always left the conversation feeling enlightened in some way. Â Just when I thought there wasn't much more to poker, he'd open his mouth and say something that I had never thought of, whether it be on how to play a hand or how to approach poker.
Oh lordy what a victory today :D Â 5/10 HUPLO. Â I was getting sooooooo depressed on the downward swing @ the end. Â This guy was playing just 50bb huplo and I had taken like 5k off him before he starting taking it all back + another 1.2k. Â Trying to be consistent w/the coaching I've been getting, I kept looking at the bright side of things. Â I'm already up 2k (lol) and poker is one long session. Â Keep playing my A game and my green line will go up. Â And what do you know, something so simple helped me stay in the game and fight my way back to victory.Â Â
and so begins my month. Â Great results, great volume. Â I'm going to start doing my best to just completely ignore HEM results. Â I don't want to look at my graphs anymore. I really want to do this right and build true confidence. Â No more worrying about results. Â It's time to focus on playing my A game every session. Â It's time to push myself past my previous limits into a new and even better player. Â I cannot have true confidence if I am worried about my graphs. Â I'm a good enough player to know when I'm playing poorly, that's enough of an indicator. Â Fuck money, that'll come with true progress.
Good luck at the tables!