December 30, 2011
Last night I was kinda down and then I got upset at myself for getting down. It's really easy to blame Black Friday / FTP shutdown on my problems, but I need to stop being such a whiney bitch. Those were big setbacks but ultimately I'm good enough to do fine even in the current climate and I need to stop looking for excuses to feel bad and not play.
I decided the key to be being happy, at the moment, is really simple:
- Play poker for at least 5hours a day, 5-6 days a wek
- Go to the gym 3x a week (i actually enjoy this, but stopped because I was feeling down)
- Enjoy myself on my off time. This includes going out but also staying in and learning new things. I've been doing online college courses on Mathematics(Probabilities) and the Yale Psychology course and I'm really enjoying it.
I've been trying to psych myself up to play like 12hrs a day 7 days a week in an effort to quickly robusto and then have been feeling really down because I fail to do it - I think it has the reverse effect of making me not even play at all some days because I feel so shitty about it all.
Today I woke up (late), went grocery shopping, ate some food and played my first session (2.2hrs). Now I'm going to cook some steak/pasta and then play another 3-4hrs. I think I could get used to this.
I am planning on switching my blog to more of a video-blog and just doing weekly youtube vids (posting them here) and focus it a bit more on sharing cool hands i've played, and just helpful tips for poker players, and adding in my personal shit as well.
I'm also planning out a *real* DC video series soon. So the the video blogs should help me get ready for that.