gambling....

 

lol, ive played like at least one hand at any game within $.05 - $20 big blind, I even played some razzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz (boring)

I ve started playing at about 10 or 11 august and yet managed to play 24k hands playing nolimit 50% of hands even. Two main problems i have in the game are the following:

 - i look at the result in hem while playing, its a problem cuz it affects me - not in the way i play (i hope) but it affects the time i might play, ie if im losing i obviously just play until i refresh my hem and see green things there or a 4 digit red ones, lol, i think it did not happen this august, but i was close

- the second i think is not that big but when i lose a good amount or feel not like playing my main game i play other games, of course its not that bad while youre still controlling yourself, but i sometimes (like 80%+) am not - lose some buyins in NL, close all tables, open up 4 tables of 100PLO, and maybe play not that good or gamble more than i should, lose some more buyins, as a result try to get out of minus, lose some more, feel even worse.

So, starting from september Id like to make thoese things better in game by:

1. Not fucking playing other games near my usual stakes in Hold'em unless I'm drunk

2. Truing to lessen the times i look into my HEM while playing (it d be hard for me to stop it at all in one moment)

3. Not playing tired, trying to get out of negative result and all that stuff, rather watching videos, getting myself better at by poker other ways or just not thinking about it till the next day.