October 23, 2011

Far too long

So I don't know what happened to this idea of doing this blog, life it seems. Look back at this blog, i was somewhat unhappy with things a while ago. Now I'm not, and frankly it seems funny to look back and say that, because at the time I didn't even realize it. That isn't to say there isn't plenty of things still to be done, but some major things i have made massive strides in. So now im going to leave a few links to some great reads i have found, and start over from there i guess. 

http://www.husng.com/content/hokiegreg-answers-your-questions#comments
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/185/heads-up-sng/playing-poker-living-its-marathon-not-sprint-pooh-bah-1078795/index7.html


even thou these are about poker, it could be applied to anything. The key of this evening in my mind has been trying to be more successful of a person. I have been thinking about this:  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roger_Bannister#The_sub-4-minute_mile

Before Bannister ran a sub 4 minute mill it was commonly believed that doing this would make your heart explode. The next year, many people broke this mark. How did people view everest a few hundred years ago,.. "impossible to climb",..... don't be told something can't be done, push and find a way!

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June 30, 2011

p90x, pokerz, school, getting numberz :P

So to update what's new:

* Started p90x, but the fact i have randomly been drinking beer this week i think i have mostly ruined the effect of it. Im slowly starting to get the new idea of the diet down, but wow do old habits die hard. It's a work in progress thou, I didn't think I would be able to just jump into this and actually radically change my diet and workout constantly right off the back. As my new buddy Jeremy warned me: don't keep putting your workouts off during the day, wake up early and do it. He was so right, a few days in and half my workouts have been past midnight, and last nights was at 4:30am. That's not good. I need to go to bed with an exact set time for when I'm getting up and working out, bc clearly when i am without a plan I am useless. Also, this is rough and I am not exactly being honest with my break time during it. I hope to get this down more, improve my endurance, improve my form, and improve my sleeping habits. I'm not even close to being a morning person, but staying up to 5am doesn't exactly help

* School is going decent. I got a lot of work to do over the weekend as I will be in Jacksonville at my parents beach house this weekend ( god i wanted a big party at the lake with my friends for the 4th but its not happening) so I'm going to try and power out a LOT of HW and studying. I hope my parents don't get the wrong impression, I'm not trying to impress them of do lots of work for them to see. I'm going to do a lot of work purely for myself. I feel like that is something i have failed to get across to them recently. 

* Poker- so i put a tiny bit on merge to screw around with this weekend bc i knew nights would be hell with my parents bored out my mind, and what you know i shipped the 2r. So i have a tiny BR, weeee. So the plan is to at night play some, and then if I am not busy sunday probably blow it all on playing the 100K gaurnt on merge. I don't expect to ever see that money, if i can withdraw what i put in i see it as a win. It's purely for entertainment. And working well to be perfectly honest

* Girlz- so me and the girl i was kinda loosing my mind over are cool now. We are strictly friends, and I'm actually trying to help her get with this guy she likes. I'm not the type to get jealous or pissed really, i value her friendship and want her to be happy, and she wants the same mostly. It's liberating to have the awkwardness killed. And on other fronts, got a cute waitress's number at a billiards's bar by campus, and working on the p90x to get into really good shape. For once my personal life is not a clusterf*ck ( knock on wood) and all is mostly quite on the western front. This is nice for me. 

* Moving forward: I need to do a sh*t ton of HW and work out a lot on vacation. After that, I really wanna work on some short handed cash games, its by far my weakness. Messing around in some really small stakes stuff will be fun. I actually love to be out of my comfort zone some when playing poker, it keeps the game interesting and intriguing to me. So we will see what happens. 


Anyways, lets see what happens going forward

Posted By rrumsey at 04:43 PM

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June 23, 2011

Setting goals

So I would like to start this off by saying that I'm fully aware that everyone seems to start a blog for various reason, and the leading one seems to be motivation. Clearly this becomes somewhat boring and dull for people to read, and frankly I would often times see them and just not even read them. They seem to be a dime a dozen. This trend didnt make sense to me until recently. It is shocking how just the idea of putting all your goals, ideas, and personal challenges out there for people to read ( even if hardly anyone actually does) makes it a point of pride for me to work harder towards achieving these goals. So lets get to it and see if i can make some head way!
Goal #1
* Work my freaking ass off in school. Since black Friday i have way more free time, and I'm starting to channel more of that to my school work. This is great. My grades are looking better, homework is always being done. I need to get a tutor set up, and then i need to really put it in high gear. I can make an A in every single class, so why don’t I? Time to grind this out. I know i can do it. Changing majors was hard ( from Biology to Finance) but I know have a clear cut plan for where i wanna be in life, so with those goals I see a future I would like, so now it is time to get my ass in gear and work towards it ASAP!
Goal #2
* I have started and stopped p90x so many times. I think its a common thing for people. But in all honesty I have no excuse why i couldn’t do it every day. I tend to have a all or nothing attitude, if i miss 2 days I just lose the interest to do it. That’s a terrible reason, i shouldn’t be working at it from that perspective. If i miss a day I just need to keep working and try and stay on the path. So to try and help me with that I have asked to see if I can find a motivation partner ( someone else starting p90x) in the dc p90x thread so hopefully I can find someone to help keep me motivated and hopefully I can do the same for him!
Goal #3
* I have had a really shitty personal life as of late. I actually feel head over heels for someone, but they are very unsure of what they want. It was making me miserable for a long time now ( past month or so). Time for me to do things to make me happy and move on. I actually really like this person ( despite actually trying to not) but i need to move on and set boundaries in my head. I can’t let myself go mentally to places and let myself have feelings that will lead to me being unhappy. This is rough because I really don’t get emotionally connected to people easily so when I honesty do it becomes a major problem to undue it. I don’t really regret a lot of the times I had with her thou: we had fun, she honestly got me over my last major relationship which i can’t thank her enough for because I was miserable about that, and finally i really do still value her friendship and wish her all the best. I want her to be happy, but i was being selfish and unrealistic. It’s in the past, and I’m currently trying to move forward.
Goal #4
* As a reward to myself when I have my homework and studying done, I have worked out that day, and my life and living area is in order: I will force myself to have fun but only when it is acceptable to. I’m horrendous with managing my time. I often times play before i work, or work so much i hate it, or play so much I can’t get enough of my work done. A common theme about my life is everything is out of balance. So I need to balance things. My goals are somewhat ambitious, I’m going to often times be working my ass off. So I am going to allow myself to watch TV, play in play chips poker ( black Friday sucks), play SC2, watch net-flicks, whatever ONLY AFTER I HAVE MY SHIT IN ORDER FOR THAT DAY! This is big for me. I know how to work hard, i know how to have fun, and i know i should have my life balanced. What I’m lacking in is the discipline to actually balance myself. I have to be very cautious of this. This is my biggest flaw in life. If I don't solve this i expect i will go nowhere in life.

Basically all my goals are about moving forward and balancing my life. I spend too much time dwelling on things and frankly bitching about things. This needs to change, I need to be more proactive about my life and be in more control over myself and my emotions. The funny thing is that I’m not exactly an emotional person, I feel I do a decent job of controlling them for the most part. But in hindsight, a lot of my controlling of emotions was just ignoring their existence, and that will only delay the problem. The true solution is to confront things, and being as passive as a person as I tend to be this rarely happens. So time to move forward with everything. 
Thanks for taking the time for reading this if you actually did. I’m very much just doing this for myself but if you happen to read this, have any comments or have faced similar situations please feel free to leave a comment, I try to be open to people’s input.

Rrumsey

Posted By rrumsey at 06:07 PM

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