Running for the red line

I haven't blogged in too long but I've been doing quite a lot pokerwise which is interesting.
Unfortunately I've also been through quite a difficult process, so it's not all positive.

This year poker has felt like a cruel game. And somewhat expensive.

My green line continues downwards, I'm not calling it run bad or a downswing because I'm not entirely sure what it is yet.
I am reviewing hands and for the most part I feel pretty good about the way my thought process is coming along. I seem to be making  a lot of good decisions for the right reasons.

It's a shame the results dont reflect that in my bankroll.
Which raises todays question in my mind:

If poker was a different game, maybe like chess some sort of video game where instead of wagering money, we scored our results based on the quality of our strategic decision. And in a world where we never knew about the alternative idea of wagering.

Would we still play?

I have had to accept a great many spots recently where the decision and implementation was correct, but the results were dissapointing.
I'm getting better at accepting this, although I recognise that by talking about it, I'm still complaining about it.

But on the turn of the card I think it really didn't matter to me anymore.

"Well you had the top of your range, but I think I had your range correct."
"Well I had x equity, and I was correct to make that bet-call."
"Well I had your range crushed but the river card killed my action, another time I get your stack."

And that's really all I want from the game next month.
I've dropped down in stakes, and I'm disappointed by that, but I think I've risen in my ability to think about, and play the game postflop.

And that's enough reward for now.