It's RIGGED!!!

Been doing a lot of thinking and researching lately.  Bottom line is that I don't want to sell my house because it would be a huge hassle.  I have a lot of furniture and if I were to move somewhere, I'd have to stick all my furniture in a storage unit or sell it.  That would be an incredible chore. 

When I moved into this house, I didn't plan on moving out for awhile.  When my parents bought this place for me, I planned on paying them rent till it was paid off and eventually get married to my girlfriend. She had a job and I was playing poker. Everything was going fine.  I was 100% that I was going to get married and be settling down.  Well, in June of last year everything drastically changed for me.  My fiance dumped me two months before we were going to get married in Vegas.  Funny thing was that we dropped her wedding dress off to get worked on a day before.  (More on that in a future blog.  The year anniversary of her dumping me is just a couple weeks off) In November'ish WA state outlawed Full Tilt poker.  That was a set back, but I worked around it.  Then as we all know, a month ago was probably the second worst moment in my life.  Online poker was basically banned in the US.

All my money is online.  I barely had enough to pay last months bills.  I have zero money till Full Tilt decides to pay it's players.  Over the last couple days I have been researching on moving to Canada.  I heard it wasn't as hard as I was making it out to be.  Turns out that you just drive across the border and tell the border patrol that you are going there for six months to play online poker.  Oh and you need about $15,000 to $20,000 in your bank account.  Guess how much money I have in my bank account.  About $50 give or take about $40.  I might be able to borrow that much money from my parents so I can just have it in my bank account for when I cross the border, but that's a lot of money. Plus combined with having to rent a place in Canada and selling my house. That is just too much of a hassle.

So, I'm back where I was.  I have to get a job.  It is the only option I have.  Extremely lame.  I feel like I have given up on poker.  Not to mention all these people that have been telling me that I can't make it in poker are going to have huge "I TOLD YOU SO' looks on their faces.  Doesn't matter that it was the f**cking goverment's fault.  They aren't going to look at it that way.  I just assume not talk to these people or at least not bring up the subject. 

Today, I'm going to my parents' house to make up a resume'.  I haven't made one in like five years.  I can't remember how to even write one up.  Plus I am applying to the Wal-Mart that is jest a few blocks from my house.  That seems like the ideal job right now.  It's close and they seem to hire anyone and everyone.  If some of those retards can get hired, I should be a shoe in.   I applied for any position except 'cart pusher'  Screw that.  I hope I get the job just so I can post pictures on here of the most miserable time in my life.  I really doubt that I am going to make as much as I made online.  Prolly not be able to afford living expenses.  I'll end this paragrapgh with the plus sides.  I will be able to apply for food stamps.  Prolly get about $200ish a month for food.  It's pathetic, but I'll be paying taxes up the ass and this is just like getting that money back.  I'll get to live in my house and take care of my garden and lawn that I have been growing and bringing back to life for almost three years.  I won't have to move my cat, he loves it here.  I can continue to feed all my stray cat friends on my back porch.  Although I will be completely miserable at whatever job I get (if I get), at least I'll be able to survive. 

My life is.....
RIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGED!