It's RIGGED!!!

Thought I'd give it a try.  I'm pretty sure I'm destined to be single the rest of my life.  I'm sitting at my computer in my house, alone, for most of the day, everyday.  I don't go out much, if at all.  And I don't make much money.  So the future is looking pretty bleak for me.  Years of going to sleep alone and depressed thinking of what could have/should have been I have to look forward to.

I think about her everyday, every hour.  I'll never know the real reason why she broke up with me.  Times were awesome two months ago.  Life was going great, no worries.  Then bam, worst nightmare and it's never ending.  A life of depression.  I know a lot of people have it worse than me, but it doesn't make it any less difficult.  I can make a great husband for someone.  I cook and clean.  I'm home all the time.  I make my own schedule.  Most importantly, I know how to love.  Finding that woman that appreciates that and is willing to love me as much as I love her is going to be a trick.  One of my biggest flaws is that I am not sociable.   I don't know the first thing about going up to a girl and starting conversation.  I've had two relationships that lasted about two years each.  I met both of them online.  I thought I got lucky with the last one, but she dumped me.  I'm now back into the wild and have no idea what to do.

Ok enough about that.  It was just on my mind and I wanted to tell somebody.  To poker.  I woke up at about 7:30am because my neighbor decided to mow his lawn 15 feet from my window.  I decided to twitter about it.  I started playing poker at about 9:00.  Played just about straight through till 6:00.  I ran sooooooooooo bad in sooooooooo many spots.  It was so fucking frustrating.  I would really like to get out of this funk.  It is completely ridiculous how bad I am running.  I'm not playing bad!!!!  Yet, I am having such trouble turning profit!  Today I played 109 games and made 6.5 buy-ins.  Combined with yesterday's 48 tourneys I made a half of a buy-in. 

I was looking at some stats today and there are some players with sick ROI's.  It seems that these are players that are playing different than the regs.  To me moves that they make are massively -EV.  So I'm not really sure what's going on.  Maybe I need to spend some time watching some videos or make one of my own.  Yeah I really should do that.  I just don't have much time because I'm trying to get as much volume in over these last few days of the month.  I'd like to have some winning days, because I don't think I can run any worse than I have been.  Also, I was trying to stay in the top 10 on the low limit leaderboard, but it's not looking like that's going to happen.  I guess at the end of the month a handful of $24 regs make a push so they can get to the top of the leaderboard.  They only have to play half the games that I have to. 

There's a player at the top of the leaderboard, pandurrrr.  Not sure if anyone knows this player, but he has a 10% roi at the $22 regular speed STT's.  Over the last three months he's made about $20,000 and you can add about $5k more in rakeback .  He puts in sick volume obviously.  It got me thinking that maybe the turbo's aren't where it's at.  Players at the $24 Turbo's are at like a 2% roi at best.  He's obviously having no problem getting in volume at the regular speeds.  Hmmm very interesting.  Maybe it's time for a switch.  I'd have to play continuously because it would take forever for 12 tables to load.  They last about twice as long as turbos, but if that means a roi that is way higher than what I am getting now, then I'm all for it.  I'll have to think on it.

Well, enough typing for tonight.  I'll listen to the rest of the Mariner game (about 2 minutes) then watch some episodes of 24.  See ya.

RIGGED!!!