July 23, 2010
Two days ago, I made almost $300 (25 buy-ins).Â Yesterday I lose almost all of that.Â I was upset about that all day today.Â Today seemed like it wasn't going well at all.Â I was thinking negatively the whole time. I played six sets basically straight through till about 3:30pm.Â I had to get outta the house, so I went golfing.Â That was more frustrating and I tweaked my wrist as I experimented with a different grip.Â I left the course pissed.Â I got back home and played my last three sets while listening to the Mariner game.Â I love playing during the game.Â I have so much fun listening to it.Â I still get excited, yell and clap alone in my house.Â They are 18 games back from first place, but I still listen every night.Â
Today I grinded out 111 games.Â I made 12 buy-ins.Â Thank God.Â Those were my exact words when I looked at my results.Â I thought I lost for sure.Â I was ready for the worst.Â Such a relief to win today.Â It's getting down to the end of the month and I'm starting to stress about my ROI.Â I fear that it's not too good, but every time I make money it climbs just a little.Â I fear that I am just a tad above break even.Â I'm holding back at looking because I think the reality will just depress me even more. All I know is that I'm making money and my bankroll is higher than last month, but I'm getting a lot more rakeback and I have my $250 mid year bonus in there.Â So we'll see.Â
I'm cranking out quite a bit of volume.Â More than I ever thought I could play.Â I'm not positive of how many games I've played, but in the middle of the month I had 1033.Â I should be on pace to play at least 2000 games.Â It's crazy easy to get in volume now that I'm single.Â I looked at the Full Tilt Low-Limit Leader board tonight and I am #11.Â That was a shock.Â Only one person playing $12 turbos has more points than me.Â I'm real close to the next few players above me too.Â Now I have a new goal.Â To climb as many places as I can.Â Each place I move up I get more of the buy-in that I most commonly play.Â I've never even been close to this high.
Well the M's are getting stomped by the Red Sox, so I think I'm going to watch some Dexter.Â Oh which reminds me.Â My brother and some of his friends got free airfare, motel and press passes to this years Comic Con down in San Diego.Â He's met several celebrities so far and he was interviewed by Showtime talking about Dexter.Â Â So jealous.