July 07, 2010
Horrible day, horrible life.
Today consisted of a lot of poker. None of which was fun at all. I ran bad all day long. I have been sitting, with the exception of a few trips to the fridge, for about 9 hours. I'm depressed, sad, angry, hopeless, lonely, etc.Â
Over the past few hours I've been in the dumps over the usual, the ex. It makes me sad even calling her an ex. It does me no good in stressing over something that is not going to change, but I can't help it. Life is hell.
Today I played only 96 games because the last set went so horrible that I cannot look at poker for the rest of the night. I lost another 14 buy-ins today. I'm in the sickest downswing. I'm losing so much that if I lose tomorrow (if I play) that I gotta move down to the $6.50s. If that happens, I think that all hope is lost for me. I cannot make a living at the $6.50s. It looks like I can't even make it at the $12s at the moment. It's complete bullshit. Why do I run so bad at life? I'm alone, poor and depressed. As you guys have noticed, my emotions are a roller coaster. One day everything is going great and the next day I find my self in my worst nightmare.Â
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1 Comments:
Howmuchyougotleft posted on July 07, 2010 at 06:38 AM
I know it is easier said than done but try not to play when there is problems with your gf or ex and your in a emotional state. I am speaking from experience it can cost you alot of money that when you look back at it in a few weeks time you will be more on tilt for why you blew off so many bi during this period...
Self exclude for a week from all your pokersites and go try sort yourself out!!.. I know its hard to hit that self exclude button but sometimes u just gotta do it!! Trust me it will save you money in that week and probably for the rest of the month!!
Good Luck
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