May 12, 2010
Well now I'm scared
I’ll get straight to the point. I basically lost about 18 buy-ins tonight. Over 73 games. I ran terrible. Now shoves I thought were correct are really fucking me over. This exact situation started out last year at this same time. I couldn’t lose for a while and made a lot of money (imo). Then I proceeded to lose it all soon afterward. I am terrified that I am going to do that same thing. My hot streak is over and now the only way is down. I’d been fearing this for a few days now. I’ve been trying my hardest to study if I’m uncertain in spots. I don’t want to plummet downward like I did last year.
I have another day off tomorrow. Days off are both good and bad. The plus sides are that I get to do other things than sit in front of the computer and I get to spend time with Courtney. It is fun and it makes me happy. The negatives are that it derails my rhythm and I lose my confidence in my poker game. One day away from poker seems like an eternity.
Today poker sucked in every single way. I ran horrible (players had hands every time and when they didn’t they sucked out). Players that I had never seen before were calling me SUPER light in the worst possible places. I had lost almost all recollection of where I should desperation shove.
Another thing is that I play so much better when I am listening to the Mariner game and not music. Music tears my mind away from poker so bad. I cannot concentrate on poker anymore with music playing. When I’m listening to talk radio I can totally remove my mind from the radio and focus on poker. It is not that way with music.
I am going to do LOTs of studying on Thursday. I doubt that I will devote my whole day to studying because I’ll bore my self to literal death, but I must get my game back to where it was just a few days ago. When I have confidence, I do not care if I get sucked out on. But if I have doubt in a play, I go insane, the whole world comes down and I forget everything.
I am terrified that I am going to lose all the money I have made in the last week. Highs in poker do not last long. It’s the dirty dirty part of this game.
RIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGED!
3 Comments:
Snaptress posted on May 12, 2010 at 11:09 AM
Hi!
You said it perfectly about confidence. I feel the same way... like everyone else says, keep your head up and keep learning. I know it sucks to go through these downswings, but if you think about it, the more you go through, the easier they'll eventually get, which is essential since it's just a part of playing poker right?
Good luck,
Kristy
veloblank posted on May 12, 2010 at 17:24 PM
Rigged, I went through the same the past few weeks on Stars. Spots where I was losing came up so frequently that just broke my poker spirit. The study I was putting in helped with some of my game, and then there was times where I just spewed off buyins left and right due to impatience and anger over the state of the games. Running bad and playing bad sucks. Enjoy the days off and time with your girl; that's what helped me. This week I'm playing much better, with a clearer mindset. The psychological part is a grind for sure. Stay positive. Continue to work on your game. There are guys that would have quit poker altogether over much less and not even bothered to study the games.
On the technical side, I've played tighter in spots that were pretty thin, like BvB. I forgot that ICM does not equal push/fold; it helps determine it; but a few more factors get put in with it to determine quality play. Hope it works out for you. Add me on skype and I'll work with you if you have any problems.
live_straddle88 posted on May 12, 2010 at 17:39 PM
Sorry to hear you're running so bad. It took me a long time to truly "learn" this, but taking time off is really really +EV during a downswing. Consider even taking a day or two where you're not doing anything poker related at all (i.e. no studying hand histories, reviewing ICM calcs, etc). Clearing your head fully then recommitting yourself can do wonders for your game. GL!
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