March 16, 2010
Today was a good day for poker at least. I played 84 tourneys today, might be the most Iâ€™ve ever played in a day. At least recently. I did ok. I felt like I did better than I did. I played a few sets of $6.50s to get warmed up. Then played five sets of the $12s. I havenâ€™t played since last Tuesday. I think I made the same amount at both limits. Made about $75 at both. Felt like I was doing a lot better at the 12s, but oh well.
I need to make money so badly. At the beginning of today I was very depressed about poker. I was bored, tired, and frustrated. I wasnâ€™t taking the beats as well I usually do. For a moment I was considering quitting poker for awhile and concentrating on getting a job. Yeah that sounds crazy huh. I havenâ€™t worked in two years. I actually think I may go to a few places tomorrow and fill out some applications. Uggg, I hate this process, Iâ€™ll have to make my resume up and junkâ€¦blah blah. What a fucking pain. I think I may try to get my old job back. I got fired from there because I was playing more poker than working on the graveyard shift. They hired people back that were fired all the time when I worked there so I might as well give it a try. I sure enjoyed it there and I was very shocked when I was canned.
Iâ€™m going to still play poker as much as possible for the next week(s) If I keep making money then I wonâ€™t look for a job so deliberately. If I have a few losing days, then Iâ€™ll probably have to find a job because I cannot deal with the variance right now. Variance is pretty bad for me because I am not a flawless player. My roi hasnâ€™t been too hot recently. Iâ€™m trying to fix that with lots of studying. Iâ€™ve brought myself out of huge downswings before. So I should be able to do it again.