October 11, 2011
I wasn't playing well tonight at the microstakes on Carbon. I mean, I was playing okay, but I wasn't playing my A-game. As a result, I lost about $6. Not fun.
I was down about $2 playing NLHE and I realized I was playing super-aggressively. I was 3-betting very, very light, double-barrelling when maybe I aughtn't, I was spewing. So I stopped for the night.
Which is fine, one of the ways to lop-off the C-game is to literally leave the table, an option that I have that pros don't.
Online play tilts me more than live play. And the reason, really, is Black Friday.
I have $3200 in my bankroll for live play; but the important thing is that if I lose a buy-in or two, I can just reload with the next paycheck. I'm not worried about completely going busto. If I can't afford 100NL, I'll switch to 50NL only, and if I bust that, I can do 20NL and 10NL games.
But online, I have $58.65. That is all I have. That is all I can have; if I go busto with that money, I'm not reloading. The reason, primarily, is because I don't want to put any more money online than I already have. After losing $101 from Full Tilt going belly up, I only put in the minimum, $20 - and the online microstakes are really just to "keep in practice" for live play.
So, in many ways, my live bankroll is a "renewable resource," while my online bankroll is a "finite resource." So, I'm a little more prone to tilt, a little more prone to take bad beats badly...
Just some food for thought.
Only halfway through Ep. 3.5 and this stuff is MINDBLOWING. Oh my god, THAT'S why I suck!
Glad you guys convinced me to join up.
I've already got a list of "targets" to work on.
* I play too many hands when on tilt. Need to super-tighten up until I can relax a bit and un-tilt. That means 88+, ATs+, and AKo. Folding all the blinds for three rotations is a lot less expensive than a single misplayed hand. Folding all hands except AA, KK, QQ, and AK in EP isn't a bad idea either. Not that I can't play more hands (88+, AJs) when I'm on my A-game but by definition, I'm not on my A-game!
* Getting my money in bad doesn't mean I've failed if I've gotten my money in good against the range I have assigned to villain. I may have mis-estimated the villain's range, but I made the right decision at the time based on what I knew, and can do nothing. Example: Villian limps into a multiple person pot, I raise in position with AKo, he re-raises all-in. (I'm shortstacked.) I make the call, he turns over AA. I put the villian on 99+, AQs/o+ with weight towards JJ-99, because those are hands you can see a cheap flop and see if you have a set/overpair against multiple players, *or* hands you can outright shove with. I ran into the top of his range. I was berating myself for saying: "I KNEW he had AA... I should have folded." No, based on the information I had, I made a decision that I thought had the best +EV. Maybe my range was off, but my decision based on that range was solid.
* When on tilt, meditation at the table isn't necessarily a "stupid" idea until I'm centered.
* I will no longer lose two buy-ins in a session. I will now lose a buy-in, leave the table, get a burger, check out some webcomics on my phone, and join a new table, new session, new buy-in. It may happen to be that it's the same table, same players, same stakes, but it's a new session. You cannot change the fate of that previous session, any more than you can change the past.
I'll post more targets in this topic as I continue listening (it's an 8 hour series). But already, I can see things clearer.
* Forgot one: Never raise or bet unless you know what you're going to do if you get raised/3-bet. I didn't have this plan when I raised with AK in the above hand. I -did- have this plan in another hand at my regular home-game where I had AQ on an Axx flop. I raised, and realized that I would commit to the hand if 3-bet, as I had a reputation as a cautious player who could make big lay-downs to 3-bets, and that more often than not, a 3-bet on this table was designed to get me off of TPTK/TPGK type hands rather than a show of any real strength. (Indeed, I had a similar situation when I had AK on a Kxx dry flop in the session previous and tanked for a while before making the call to a 3-bet check-shove. I eventually made the call, to find that the villain had two undercards - complete air.) This time, having had the plan, I made the instacall. Villian had OESD+FD, so we were flipping, but not making the call was surrendering my equity. (We ran it twice, and each took half.)
* Oh, here's one I just got to with "Singletasking" - I now know why I was playing so shitty (worse than c-game, this was F-game...) when I was recording my first video for DC. Because I wasn't concentrating on the poker, I was concentrating on making the video. My second video, I just kept playing poker with the screen recorder running. No commentary. And I did much better.
* Here's one that's more for real life: Mindful listening. I do tend to be a bit self-absorbed. What I need to do is be a more mindful listener. The example of:
Friend: I caught a big fish the other day.
Response: Mindless: "I caught a big fish too" - Mindful: "What kind of fish was it?"
Is something I ABSOLUTELY need in my entire life.
Hmm, maybe I should consider learning more about this Bhuddist stuff. Of course, I don't even know how to spell it, so there you go.