The road to my first bracelet

Ok. If I look at my blog entries, on april 7th 2010 I said I was going back to 10NL. 3 months later, back at 25NL. Well, in 2 weeks, I lost a bit more than what I grinded in 3 months. That's about $300. After reviewing my hands, I counted aproximately $60 of big mistakes. The difference? I just lost. Although I love the game, I love studying it, watching videos, etc. I am losing my faith in all of this. Am I just a cry baby? Frustrated? Or maybe it's all normal and in the long run, I'll see the results. Do I have enough of one life to see the big picture? I can live with bad beats, I do. 2 weeks ago, after a few minutes into 2 table session, I flop TPTK. Villain chases with his small pair and hit his set on the river. I played the hand right and lost. The odds were always in my favor. Villain just got lucky. 10 minutes later, this exact scenario happened another 3 times, 4 in all, against different players, different tables. That's 4 buy in gone. Ok, fine. Let's keep playing as best as I can. Got stack twice more within the next 20 minutes. Finished the session with just a small loss.

All sessions did not end the same. You don't always flop the monster hand. Too result oriented? Maybe. I am not result oriented to the point that I freak out because my AA lost. But I am after losing 3 months of hard earned grinding at 10NL. Should I go back to 10NL? Why? Chasers will still hit. Morons who want to see a flop with Q3 offsuit might still flop 2 pairs and crush your KK. But since they never raise, you'll end up all in on the river. You don't get stacked, you stack yourself. Maybe I should just keep working hard, redeposit if I need to and play the best I can. Problem is, after a while, one start thinking this:

1- A poker site is  business first.

2- A business is there to make money.

3- To make money, you need happy customers who will come back.

4- A customer with 55 who misses his set on the flop has 8% chances of hitting it on the turn or river, i.e. 92% chances of losing the hand. And that is not a happy customer. Let's fix this. Or one who enters the pot with trash like Ad 3s. Lets make him flop 3 diamonds while villain has JhQh. lol. I would not think of putting too many chips in that pot even if the flop was Qd Jd 4d. There is another diamond coming.

 

P.S. Anyone with enough live poker experience can tell me that it's the same as internet poker?