keeping myself honest

After busting out a few lousy hands, I need to build my bankroll again. I could grind 5NL but nothing makes me feel more like a dying robot than 5NL games. I switched over to 180 mang SNGs and started watching The Top 0.56 Percent videos. 

lol sample sizes, but 24 sessions, $100 net, $6/hour, 15 hours so far. My heads up game needs a lot of work. The last 180 I played I finished in 3rd making a stupid call. Should have folded to the SB considering stack sizes. Oh well. 180-SNGs are such a nice change of pace from cash grinds. 

Poker Stars $2.28+$0.22 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1500/t3000 Blinds + t300 - 3 players - View hand 1433341
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

SB: t112071 M = 20.75
BB: t46754 M = 8.66
Hero (BTN): t111175 M = 20.59

Pre Flop: (t5400) Hero is BTN with 5 A
Hero raises to t6000, SB raises to t18000, 1 fold, Hero calls t12000

Flop: (t39900) T A 7(2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets t3000, SB raises to t18000, Hero raises to t92875 all in, SB calls t74875

Turn: (t225650) 6(2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t225650) 4(2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t225650
SB shows A K (a pair of Aces)
Hero shows 5 A (a pair of Aces - lower kicker)
SB wins t225650

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I haven't really played seriously. I've been going for a few years now mostly recreationally, sometimes thinking I'm a good player because I made a few bucks and then losing it all in a massive disgraceful tilting donkfest. Never BR'd properly I'd wonder why I kept going broke.

I took a break for many months but came back and started posting HHs on 2+2, reading tons, going back through old books and gaining more insight than ever before. I leveled up, in the Super Mario Sense, and now I think I'm ready for level 2.

So far I played about 15k hands in Aug from 2NL to 25NL and my best game was 25NL. I saved some money so I could be rolled properly and now it's time to get serious.