A Start- Bloggggging

Hey all,

If you read my earlier post, you'll know I was bonus whoring to pay for current expenses, but that dried up a bit in that the "kickbacks (which differ from straight bonus)" take alot more time to clear so figured I'd just grind like an ordinary human being and see how it goes without rb. The reason I made this decision, at least will hold to it for the time being, is the site I am playing on really is that juicy, that even without rb, I am probably still making more than I would on a tougher site/network where the nits nit it up and the fish don't splash in deep waters the way they do here. Wish I had put a little more volume in the past two or three weeks, but a 3 day weekend at the beach, a few crazy nights outs, and one or two days bumming because of the run bad limited my hours at the tables. Still at 10nl but my roll is now at $425 so will be moving to $20nl asap. Had my roll up to $1200 from scratch but had to pay rent, food, dates etc so was comfortable grinding out the 3-5 bi's a day (maybe 5 days a week) and withdrawing weekly. I do have to mention my idiotic "fear" of moving up. It is idiotic for a few reasons 1.) Was grinding $25 and $50 for over a year and was able to handle the bigger swings, 2) Wouldn't think twice about loosing $300 playing $1-$2 in AC when I had a job because I always made so much more than I lost on those trips, 3) I am comfortably beating 10nl and have played a few thousand hands at 20nl on current site with same winrate.

So this fear may be unfounded, but regardless, it's there. I am sure 2 to 3 days in all will be fine and dandy mentally even if I am not winning at the rate I am winning at 10nl. At least I hope so. I do have to mention, as all of us bloggers do, the state of our most recent stretch of "run." Things have been decent over the last week, however, the week prior was a different story. Besides the 8-10 bi loses when I got the money in as a 98% favorite or better (it really was this many over 8k hands or so), the coolers were non stop. Not at all complaining, it was actual comical at times and I've come to expect it, but it definitely took its toll. Anyway, below is a recent graph. Will be hopefully moving on up from here and hoping the winning continues. Have also just become part of two study groups with some legit DC members, which is something I am very much looking forward to. I am sure it will benefit all of our games. Off to see a beautiful Ecuadorian amiga so hasta luego...