HotDiggy1121

not good mate what you going to do now? what games where you playing and how much you spend on coaching?

See ya in a month

Diggy, sorry man it didn't work out. I'm not sure what your regimen turned out to be over the weeks you were grinding. I know you were still playing cash and also SNGs. Any reason why you didn't just stay with one poker form/stakes to simplify things?

I don't know near enough about the life of a high stakes grinder, either cash or SNG, but I can imagine it's pretty taxing mentally at times, especially when it's new to the grinder as a full-time job. But it seems that just picking one full-time form of poker would be the best way to keep it simple, especially mixing bankroll requirements, etc.

Hope things work out for you and your family. Best of luck.

@ Browndog: Going to look for a day job. I've been in management in several different industries for about 15 years. The economy is tough, though. We'll see how it goes. I was playing tournaments with a ratio of about 8:1 SNGs vs MTTs. I experimented with FRNL Cash for a while and it just wasn't a good fit. I prefer it when opponents are forced to play with me or face getting blinded out. I switched back to SNGs because I felt like that gave me the best chance to win since I've spent much, much more time studying them than any other game.

I wasn't perfect by any means, as far as, game selection and BRM. I could have cut out larger MTTs completely. I just felt like I was really close to making a big score in a larger field. In the end, though, it was losing in the STTs that has really crushed me. I've always felt it was silly to complain in a STT when you get it in preflop as a 70:30 and lose because that's only 2 cards and poker is a 5 card game. In SNGs, though, you gotta make those shoves and calls. I can't get over this feeling that sometimes the sites just aren't going to let you win which is just a result of losing.

Regarding BRM, my goal wasn't to avoid busto. In fact, I withdrew about $400 from my accounts and still have to get $700 or so from my ewalletextress. Technically I'm not bust - I just don't feel like I can win so better to quit now.

I guess I probably spent $2k on coaching over the last 18 months. I've spent time with AMT, Rapid Evolution, and Jennifear - and they are all EXCELLENT. These folks gave me an excellent understanding of the game and I pwn peeps on a regular basis. Sometimes I have unrealistic expectations, sometimes I don't focus enough....sometimes it's poor BRM ....sometimes I don't take the stakes I'm playing seriously enough....but when I pull it all together I expect to win and that hasn't been happening for whatever reason.

@ RIGGED!: LOL! I guess I can see a scenario where I simply can't get a day job due to the economy and need to try to make poker work again. After all, as a poker player there is always work available 24x7.

@ Velo: Thanks bro. You're probably right. I observed that many of the Sharkscope leaderboard folks play a certain stakes, but not a certain game. They'll load up 18, 45, and 180 man SNGs at the same time and I thought that it must be a formula for success. Maybe it is...for them. I just don't win enough to meet my expectations.