Wave of Mutilation

I’ve been mulling over how to explain the changes that are happening within my poker game. You could say moth/cocoon, you could say JENGA BITCH! (but then that shit would all fall down and we’d have a hell of a fucking mess to clean up), you could say apples and oranges in a high speed blender ?!%# and that wouldn’t be bad, or you could liken it to how fast I could solve a Rubik’s Cube (de-scrambling its labyrinth of code like lightning rather than grandmotherly molasses).

At this point I’ve spent quite a bit of time picking Krantz’ brain and assimilating/organizing/executing the information both in my brain and at the table. Let me tell you, at first it was a spew fest :D.

Things are clearing up though, and I feel like there’s a bright horizon in the distance. Things are nice and sparkling clear, like an unmuddied lake. Like an azure sky in deepest summer, you can rely on me Krantz :D.

The best way to describe (and this really is the best way I can possibly describe this to make any sense) how I’ve felt about my latest sessions, even the ones where I lost some buy-ins (for those that may cry results oriented thinking) is as such: I feel as if all of my sessions previous to these were an autopilot version of my non-autopilot self/game. Let me say that again so it sinks in.

After spending a lot of time being mentored by Krantz and putting in hands, I feel as if every session I’ve played previous was by an autopilot version of my non-autopilot self.

What does this mean? At the very basic and simplest breakdown of what this means to me, that can apply to all of us in some way, I have been adjusting to either stats or player types too frequently, and adjusting to unique thinking and breathing individual players too infrequently (especially in the case of “good regs”). It sounds pretty simple, but it’s a fucking galaxy.

I hope this is somewhat coherent as it’s admittedly a sludgefeast of incessant rambling, but I feel like it’s OK and I am more motivated than I ever have been. Just wanted to get this out while I was thinking about it.