le petite tilt.

if you haven't read yesterday's blogpost.. you propably shouldn't. lol

well how would one benefit from another's mistakes in the matter of improving skills? i can tell you what to take care of, but in the end it is on you to apply and experience that i am right more than understanding it (or youd have to experience that you have a problem and recognize that my words are the solution) . it is on you to be able to make this step, not turn over your entire game, as this would destory more than it would help.. unless it would be necessary to do so. some steps are bigger, some smaller, some cover big leaks, some push your game to a whole nother level, but would you know where you are at then?

how does one understand his knowledge of a theory he does not understand fully? direstr88 was talking about him plateauing, because he was winning against everybody. after a stretch of entitlement he got beaten and understood how being the best will harm your development. actually it is not being the best, but being successful that harms your development. practice does not make perfect, it just manifests concepts that work out. like if you experienced that winning a big pot makes your bankroll grow more at once than winning small ones, you might not understand how important small ones are, yet even minipots. you might get angry over loosing a big pot that is not even important or get angry, because you dont get into that position to stack somebody that much anymore. you may have understood ranges in big pots better, and do everything that favours you to get into those situations. right now we have read 2 or 3 sentences about this and have lost what we were talking about just as somebody that would actually focus on big pots only. 

maybe somebody has a wider and brighter understanding of the game, still he lacks in developing further, because what he does is working out. i have faced this problem many many many many many times not only in poker but every aspect of life. i always wished a mentor would take me by the hand to lead myself to grace and class that is enlightment in a more fundamental way. sounds stupid, im just saying i would have loved to be able to rely on somebody else's experience and knowledge. somebody's care and so on. i would have been open to do anything and i would be thankful for my knowledge and skills rather than today where i am trying to fight for my worthyness rather than.. you see the difference.

we are kinda lucky to be able to share knowledge about how to approach the game here on dc and other forums, coaching sites, videos, whatsoever and at least have some more anchors out there not to limp shove aces all the time. still it is so hard to develope? 

again, how am i supposed to learn from somebody else?

i have come across many true concepts in many posts that i tend to ignore until i was ready to add it into my repertoire. some concepts just did not fit into my overall gameplan yet and some i already had taken care of and was able to get into detail.

while playing i faced villains that i could read like a book, because i been there and understood what their problem is immediatly. i could have turned people into big winners by just telling them i suppose. but would he be ready to adapt what i am proposing? if somebody is in to order himself a coach, he most likely does not understand a thing about where he is at and will be overwhelmed by information, because he leaks like hell. i dont believe in coaching being valuable, but i never been coached too intense nor did it help when others told me their ideas of situations i have been in. 

the last 10 years or so people were blinding themselves with the idea of them being "autodidactic. after what you have read, you might see how stupid that is.

btw i always ask questions, i never am happy with my game and do not take anything for granted, still suffer from this. and i suffer from people in this forum talking like they've eaten knowledge and knew it, because ppl see a more stable idea of everything (and my ego goes ALSKDJ). stability sucks in terms of knowledge, not in the sort of calmness we were talking about earlier on. my ego wants me to say that you suck, mf.

bottomline for me is that ego hinders you from developing and other people's ego's make you rage, because they try to claim a position, get heard, while you should be. 

i remember thomas hobbes saying  something like, the worthyness of a person can be weighted in the amount of money somebody else would pay to gain that persons position. to me this looks like the most natural claim.. unlike other eastern esoteric approaches. yeah i am an astral life form you dumb fuck, energy wooow. die. i would not bother them living like that, but talking? really? convincing others? what for if it was not for the same reason that we fight for higher ranks in society, like thomas hobbes' saying? right.

again we have the conflict of ego vs development, of status vs a much greater approach to an object. to me this problem is obvious and real, im not sure wether this is my problem or everybody's..