November 11, 2011
cold turkey
ello
todays blogpost, where ive been trying to make my stupid head understand i should play less tables... one thing was uncovered that i took for granted. i am in a hurry most of the time. im not cool, relaxed because i can't. OMG ADHD. i am abusing drugs tbh and i am very ashamed to say it, but its true :\ i smoke cigarettes aaaah i dont wanna. my noble mind cannot deal with the things i do, so i start not to mention things, lie or whatever. awful :\ my stupid mother always tried to convince people they should be confident with themselves smoking and not hide in front of others. one of the reasons i hate her.
so whenever i try to stop smoking i end up being super productive, like cleaning, doing things i am told to be too lazy for to take care of. but i am restless as well. i like the point of me doing things being productive and such.. but im restless. maybe im going to recognize this fade to black once i stopped smoking for a while. i dont care being restless for now, better than calming msyelf down with drugs lol and id be supercool! damn. dont wanna get into why im abusing those, maybe its just the addiction lol
lets quit lets quit lets quit lets quit lets quit..
cold turkey or slowly?
2 Comments:
nawhead posted on November 12, 2011 at 17:09 PM
cold turkey. chew gum. have a little toy to play with in your hands if you're bored. cigarettes are a sensory distraction, it works in the mouth and the hands. it becomes ritualized. you have to replace that ritual with something else. and if you relapse and buy another pack, smoke 1 or 2 and throw the rest of it away. keep doing this, and eventually you get sick of buying a pack to just smoke 1 cigarette also.
duffte posted on November 12, 2011 at 18:20 PM
hey thanks for your comment, really appreciate it!
i like the idea of throwing it away somehow, gonna do that! and HEHEH WILL A BIG TOY DO THE JOB? HEHEH :\
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