le petite tilt.

hello, another random post.

there is nothing new, but stabilizing thoughts. 

i know where i am at in terms of mental and theoretical skills and know what to look for to develope further. this is kind of the best mental state i was in in my career. i have been there earlier this year, but i did not recognize it and lost it!

i do not know wether i am just running like god these days (gettin dealt better cards. i recognize my ev, but have no awareness for variance in bluffspots, FE, bla.. maybe i can try to learn that, have notepad.exe open and write it down) more frequently, but my ev is ridiculously high. i still am playing the smallstakes and do not plan to move up too early, while i already did move up to nl100 shotting nl200 (shouldnt do that)

20k hands, net+ $5000, 21.5 bb/100 overall, allinev even, 

should prepare myself for loosing a bit in the future, shouldnt i :\ well i wont. isnt that negative results oriented thinking already? i should be very picky with my thoughts and observe my actions carefully.. this is new to me.. i would be interested in actually having those thoughts influence me and reset to where i am at now, writing this. if that's possible at all. what's the switch here?