le petite tilt.

been playing awesome lately.

reflects in my winrate, reflects in my mindset, reflects in my overall happiness.

i came across some awful beats lately and i got angry but it had no influence on my decisions afterwards. as long as i am playing good, make the right plays it is really hard to get tilted. it looks like it is true what i already recognized... that i have to come across situations i cannot deal with. so i have to stay aware of situations coming up i cannot deal with, analyze those, understand them, get better. go

21 sessions, 4 loosing including 2 tilt sessions. whadup. winrate is at 15bb/100, can live with that. wts 25 won at 50, wwsf 50, totally in line.

still got to work on my openings in early and middle, not doing so well there. 

haha right.. just when im ready to post this friend of mine countered my tries to get rid of anger that are caused by badbeats with aggression.. told me to shut up and blabla you might know that. what am i looking for when express my anger? somebody telling me that this is not fair? most likely. i still am affected by badbeats like that.. need to understand it better. looks like i take my skill personaly and still its not like it is rocksolid.. my believe in it. or is it? if it is those badbeats most likely interfere with my desire to be ahead and win? if it is just one or two badbeats alright.. but tonight wow. lets ask jared tendler

just read the chapter about injustice tilt and understanding variance.. did not really enlighten me, because i already know that and think about it once all that happens. im not sure where to go with this... hm! :< :O was it good that my friend stopped me there? it affected me heavier than those beats itself..

lets seeeeeeeeeeeeeeee