le petite tilt.

computer wasnt booting. another motherboard overnight. working again. hello.

to be able to take something personal, you have to expect something else. i feel like there has to be a misjudgement of some kind be happening to actually come up with expectations that you could as well take personal. im not talking about somebody cheating on, mistreating, bla you. im talking about totally normal situations that you claim to be unfair or not suited to your genius or whatever. things that do not have anything to do with you, even though you might be involved. if you ask me, after all i wrote down so far, i think it is fair to say that the state of mind is off justified belief in reality. all i am doing in this blog is to have a more realistic approach to myself and my position in.. where im at.

everywhere you go you will see people trying to change reality instead of their view on it (that could very well be the definition of tilt). 

lying, acting, cheating is nothing honest/real/true. honesty lasts the longest. but people might mishandle their own flaws, hide them, cover them up with jewlery, breast implants or simply with ego. fight them with defiance, ignore them with neuroses, being secretively ,whatever. lying to others, lying to themselves. living alongside your flaws, accepting those, being honest  looks like the only way to develope real strength (real!). you have to know your flaws not to be surprised by them, to be calm and patient with em. and not end up fighting those.

"Father, give us courage to change what must be altered, serenity to accept what cannot be helped, and the insight to know the one from the other." - Reinhold_Niebuhr

the realistic approach.