May 08, 2012
For the first time in my life I am trying to set myself real goals. I really have to admit, that it isn't as easy as I thought it would be. I am not only trying to set myself goals, I try to weight them differently. Example: How many hands to play til 31st December 2012. I have given myself a low goal, a solid goal, a big goal and an unarchivable goal^^ I guess the last one is the one I could delete, but just for fun I let it in there. Then there are other goals, like what limits do I want to play til the end of the year, how do I want to archieve them, etc etc. It is really tough if you have to really describe it.
I asked myself: Wouldn't I be just lucky to beat nl100/200 for an average of 8bb/100? I mean a lot of good things coming with it. I have a bigger winrate, so the swings aren't as sick as they would be if I would be just a 1-2bb/100 winner at nl400+. This means I can play more hands while on a-game, which means I can play for way more hours/day(week/month/year) then I would with a lower winrate. Of course, I can take shots at nl400/600/1k, but I feel like I should stick to what I am good at. I mean, I play up to 18 tables and I archieve such a big winrate. So maybe I can try to add more tables to play 24 maybe one day with an average winrate of ~8bb/100. 6 tables more = 480 hands/hr = 57,60$/hr more. As you can see, this is what I am asking myself right now, and I really feel it isn't that easy to find the correct answer.
Those are just things that have to do with poker. The other part is that I am thinking about what I want to do with my life. I think I have reached a lot of material goals I had in the past, and now I feel that I might not have a good enough plan for the future. I mean it's pretty much luxury what I am talking/thinking about right now, and I am really thankful for that. The question is which route I should take in terms of education. Aren't I'm happy with what I am doing, or would I feel that I could have archieved more in my life if I am like 50. I think I know the answer, and it would be that I would think I haven't made enough out of it. I think it is tbh an somewhat more easy decision, but at least I think that I should have thought about it. Taking time for a decision can't be that bad.
I am not going to post my real-life goals here, just wanted to talk a little bit about them^^ I don't feel I have completed my plan yet, even so I am on a good way. Ok, I'll give away one goal: I want to write a book one day. I feel like I would be good at doing something like that and I think that this will become at least a new hobby for me, trying to write storys etc. But I won't talk to much about it in this blog.
A little recap of my progress at poker for this year. Like I already wrote I became a masstabling player. I have played close to 200k hands so far this year (I guess that's not what you would expect a 18 tabler to have played right now^^), and overall I am happy with my results. Had to work on some stuff, and I joined a group of players who are also interested in becoming better. We all work with the same coach which is also pretty helpful iMo. Til the end of this month I should have made supernova at stars (was playing on different sites before, but now I am a stars-only reg). I started to take shots at nl400 again, but so far I am running like bullshit. Of course it might be that I am not a winner at nl400, but I doubt that. Maybe next time I'll post some graphs/hands.