donkey genetics

Feeling kinda sick at the moment…

Deposited a hundred bucks in early november and started trying to read/learn more about playing low limit nlhe online. Started at $5nl full ring and have since moved to $10nl 6 max. I’ve played just over 20k hands over the last month. I’ve played well and I’ve played like outright crap but was up a couple of hundred overall.

Then, in a moment of weakness, I thought I would sit down at a $50nl 6 max table (cue the scary music).

So, long and short of it… I loved it. Won 5 buy ins pretty quick and actually felt like I was playing poker. Life was good, my game was good and the cards were smiling on me.

Then I got sucked out on with stacks in the middle. Three times. Then I felt like if I could just tighten up and look for spots I could right the ship. I couldn’t (tighten up or find spots). Picture virtual chips being shot straight up in the air out of a cannon. The spiral continued and I lost over $200 more just tonight.

I now have less than $50 bucks in the ole account and feel like such a huge idiot. When I really started to slide I played waaaaaaaaaaaaay spewy and dumb. I totally know I wasn’t rolled to play 50nl but wouldn’t have felt too bad had I played one table and crawled back to the dime stacks after I had lost one buy in. I know better but utilized no wisdom or discipline at all. So I guess it’s back to the micro grind. So disappointing.

Anybody have a cure for the sour feeling in my stomach?