Back To The Trap House

I split my sessions into 2 different ones today. I had to watch my nephews so it was hard to concentrate during one and then when I finally got some alone time with my imac I started to grow tired. I did do some good things though that proves to myself that I am moving forward.
-I wasn't thinking of past wins or losses. I wasn't chasing losses and I didn't feel entitled or overconfident during the session.
- I did a good job focusing on the fundamentals of poker instead of trying to double up or taking anything personally and going after a specific player. I didn't just use blanket statements in my head when labeling players as in "He's a fish, my middle pair must be good" and then stack off and lose then tilt.
- I thought about specific ranges and how each part is different from the others. I thought about frequencies. I didn't get gun shy. I went with my reads and didn't get frustrated if they didn't work. 
- I held my Fancy Play Syndrome in check.The micros and Low Stakes are all about mastering value betting and bankroll management as well as getting better at board texture and bet sizing. Not spewing is a big one too or even just not losing. The rake is so high at micro and small stakes that a big part of your profits is not losing or spewing. People don't realize that with all of the pitfalls in poker not losing is actually winning in a big way. I learned that from a good friend of mine who made it all the way up to high stakes. People called him a nit but he has a great point. You can't just give stacks away which I used to do and still do sometimes but not as often as I used to.
- Everything was well thought out and deliberate. I didn't make any erratic plays. I made a few mistakes in PLO but thats to be expected since I have yet to apply the knowledge I've learned from Quickpro consistently.
- My focus didn't drift towards money or riches. All I was focused on was making profitable plays and grinding. I understand how poker looks when drawn out. Of course I will clearly understand this until I go on a wicked downswing. Until then I feel like I have a solid understanding of how the game is supposed to flow if you're a solid winning player.
- I like the feel of Carbon Poker as well as the RB and VIP program. I look forward to grinding regularly between school and my nephews and of course girls. It feels great to be able to jump back into the game with ease and put in lots of mini sessions. I also will be smoking a lot more weed again. I always do when I play internet poker. If you haven't I would suggest a strong sativa. If you read about Sativa's they spur creativity and help with focus which of course goes hand in hand with poker. I am so calm when I have my pipe and an endless amount of weed next to me with head phones blaring and a bunch of tables fired up. It's soooooo theraputic. Nothing else matters in the world at that point in time. It puts a smile on my face thinking of it : )
- I quit well. I started to feel tired and although there was a fishy/spewy player at my table I didn't try to hero my way through the session and go out of my way to get into pots with him. I waited patiently for my spots and made some solid plays against him. In the past my degen excuse would always be "I'm better than him. I need to tough it out. Thats what poker players do." Only to spew a few stacks to the fish and go to sleep angry and upset. That cycle with trigger other negative cycles such as eating bad or getting down on myself
What I didn't do so well:
- A few PLO spots I spewed into some very strong plays such as Check Raises on wet board textures W/ weak Two Pairs and no BD equity. Getting a hang of the ranges will take time but I am not too upset with myself about this one.
- I could have taken better notes and paid much better attention overall. There were a few instances where I caught myself browsing the internet. It wasn't ruining my game but more so preventing it from picking up some more dead money lying around.
- I didn't pay as much attention as I should have. There weren't enough players with notes when I left the tables. 
- I think with my state of mind I probably should've been playing FR instead of 6max and PLO. My brain wasn't firing on all cylinders and FR is my most comfortable game. I could have spent more time in my B game practicing grinding and not losing if I played more FR. 6 Max requires my full mental capacity and I wasn't crisp today.

All in all I liked how everything felt. I didn't tilt after making pour plays in PLO and I quit well. Think about it. How many times have you played a 5-8 hour session only to begin to feel tired during the 8th hour. Your stack hasn't fluctuated up or down too much but lets just say you're barely up 1 buy in, which is good, but unsatisfying to most people only to spew that profit and more by making some strange erratic play at the end of the night. Think about that. You spent 8 hours slowly making solid moves and building your bankroll only to spew in the last 10 minutes. That was the story of my poker career amongst other things but Mr. Hyde would only show up for 10 minutes a session! Dr. Jekyll would hold it down the rest but he isn't about to talk shit to Mr. Hyde now is he? Or is it the other way around?
Who the fuck knows. Good Night!