Back To The Trap House

Came to a few realizations/decisions recently

Going back to school to pursue a degree in marketing and design

Taming the degen and embracing my inner geek. I think I had it backwards before

Live players. WOW. Played in a game last night. Will break down every player in the game in detail in a post later tonight. I will be playing live at least twice a week and will use this blog as a center for note taking.

Why am I going back to school? Well, what more is there left for me to do besides finish my degree. Besides poker I've been  successful at anything else I've wanted to do.

If obvious brags tilt you please skip what I am about to write.

Girls? I've gotten to the point where I have the confidence to get girls. I've been with a lot of them. I still wake up unsatisfied. The satisfaction that I want will come from within, NOT from fucking random girls.

Any girl I want? Not yet but I am well on my way. The only thing preventing me is the lifestyle I want to live. At this point with no degree I am at the mercy of the economy and serving tables at some shitty restaurant or the current job I have. Poker wasn't ever as successful as I wanted it to be so I need to wake up. I will continue my poker ed through quickpro,DC, 2+2, Leggopoker and friends but at 60 hours a week of work I would need to quit working here and go back to serving food until I ran up a bankroll.  I'm sick and tired of bouncing around like some ping pong ball roller coaster. The highs are so much fun and the lows are lonely. I've partied harder in the past year then most people will do in their lifetime. You don't have to believe me and I don't really care if you do. At the end of the day I'm still unsatisfied with my current situation and to get out of it I need more balance. Eating drugs 3 nights a week is a lot of fun but not as fun as it would be if I had the lifestyle I want.

I'm really not as cool as I once thought I was. I mean I am but not really. This new found humble attitude is the best thing that has ever happened to me. In the past I would revert back to an arrogant cocky prick who would stop learning. I won't allow that to happen this time.

I shall embrace my inner geek rather than my inner degen from here on out. Thanks to everyone who has read my blog or continues to do so. If you keep reading I think you'll gain some great life insight. Not to say I have life solved. I never will. But I've been through a lot, more than most will ever go through. From my miss steps, failures, learning experiences and tough times you may be able to pull something out of it.

At the very least if you think I'm some dumb ass  who doesn't get it you can use it as entertainment! Either way, everyone wins!