April 30, 2011
The breakdown of my database continues. The great news is that I have plenty of leaks to plug! There are so many spots that could have been prevented where I lost a little money here or there. I guess I should've done this a long time ago.
I opened an account on carbon poker. I am trying to decide when I get my money off of FT whether I should play Carbon or Cake. I am more familiar with cakes software and its probably a little smoother nowadays then it used to be. I will most likely continue playing PLO, SNG's and some tournaments when I get back in there.
I have a really cool screen name I'm excited about. Its probably one of the best ones out there right now. I'd rather not say it because I don't want anyone to steal it. I will give you a hint: Its from a Young Jeezy song called standing ovation. If you're familiar with Young Jeezy you'd know that he raps using mad libs. In one of his lines he references the movie the sixth sense. Thats all I will say for now : )
Anyways, I haven't been able to get to any live games this week. I would like to go up tonight (Saturday) but I don't see that happening since its my friend Gregs birthday tonight. Were going to H-Burger and then to this grimey bar/concert venue called Cervantes. The last time I went there I walked into the bathroom and everyone was just exchanging drugs freely and talking about it openly. No one cares there. its got a really fun vibe going for it. Everyone just gets fucked up and has a good time!! I'm sure theres a few creepy dudes wandering around but thats every concert you go to. They're easy to spot because drugs magnify your personality and emotions. If you have a creepy vibe or creeper personality then it shows 10 fold when you're all fucked up. If you have a fun relaxed vibe and just want to have a good time then that energy radiates and people become attracted to you. I'm a bit of a modern day hippie so if that doesn't make sense to you then I don't know.....Sorry?
If I'm not too hungover Sunday I may go up and play but I doubt it. I still have plenty of database to go through. i'm going to start posting more hands for the embaressment factor alone. I feel like if I post these spots where I spewed the most and have people point them out then I will hold myself accountable. If I don't bring them out in the open then I may make that same mistake again!
Girls: I have this one girl in my scope but she was described to me as a "man eater". About 2 weekends ago we ended up at Cervantes together and had an awesome time. She ended up in my bed but I blacked out and don't really remember anything we did. I'm pretty sure we didn't have sex but haven't talked to her since. I can definetly sense she has a ton of game! I can also sense that she likes me but also likes to play cat and mouse. I played that game with this one girl last year and it took me 6 months to finally get her! After that we never really did anything but have stayed friends! Those are the type of girls that really advance your game. I've learned a lot from these girls. Most men try to bottle them up and tie them down. It doesn't work that way. They're like wild animals. If they want to settle they will but most of the time they will not.
I've learned a ton about girls the last few years. It feels so effortless now but it never used to be that way for me. I went home angry and upset from rejection a lot before I finally learned how to play the game. Probably more than anyone I know. I exposed myself to the rejection while others would shield their egos. The bottom line is that girls are no different than poker or anything in life for that matter. You have to put yourself in a series of awkward and uncomfortable situations to actually make it. In poker you have to lose a bunch of money. With girls you have to feel rejected and embaressed. My friends look to me as some sort of player. Well, I don't see it that way. A player can only get one type of girl and its usually the slutty bimbo. These PUA's are so elementary with their fake magic tricks and school yard tactics.
I'm not what you would call aggressive. I don't walk up to girls and use pick up artist lines. I don't stare at woman or lose my shit when a hot one walks around. I don't bet with my friends how many numbers I can get. I don't fuck a girl only to make fun of her with my friends afterwards. Thats the wrong way to approach it.
I did all that stuff in the past and after all these years of doing stuff that didn't work I found out that if you just relax, put out fun non creeper vibes and DON'T ever go out with the mind set of wanting to fuck the girls will flock to you. Those PUA type aggro meat heads will actually push woman towards you. Why? Because everytime you go to a bar 98% of the men there are walking hard ons looking for a hole. Well, after a woman hears 20 pick up lines and has 15 different men grab and touch her her defenses will go up. Once that happens she will look for an escape, either leave the bar or find someone more mellow and relaxed. I'm that guy whos more mellow and relaxed.
Just make friends. Thats the attitude you go out with on any given night. I NEVER go out with the intention of fucking a girl. Thats what creepers do. Let the creepers make your job easier. They will push girls towards you inadvertantly by being creepy.