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I finished the DC 50K hand challenge within 10 minutes...Heres what happened

http://www.deucescracked.com/forums/4-General-Discussion/284661--Official-DC-50K-hands-Ch?page=27&per_page=15

Well that kind of sucks since it is 2/3rds of my roll at the moment. I have some money on stars but thinking I may just hop back onto full tilt since Rush is so soft!

Normally I would be extremely upset with myself but I'm not. While I do care and am very disapointed its not the be all end all. In the past I would put so much into being a professional that this one little thing would throw me off my game for weeks. Now that I understand that poker comes after everything else then its not such a bad thing. Your family, friends and happiness should come before this game always. This is a huge turning point and another indication that I am on the right path!

 

I used to try to fit it all together like this...

1. Poker

 

 

 

A distant 2nd: Everything else

And that is why I failed. Poker comes together when you plug your life leaks, not the other way around. Tommy Angelo says get good at everything else and have poker rise with the tide. It has been for me! Its coming my way I can feel it!

In Other news: I'm really stoked and nervous for this Saturday. Theres this girl I really really dig on and shes having a cocktail party and she invited me! I've had to play this one out completely differently than I have in the past with other girls. They say in Poker do the opposite of what your opponent wants you to do. This is exactly what I have done here! It has been almost 6 months in the making. Last weekend everything came together for me! I just have to keep playing it like I have and whether it works out or not I just have to live with the results. It is the most +EV. It feels good to construct a plan like this, play it exactly that way and have it work out. The games not over yet, its just the very begining and this is where the real fun starts. I think thats where a lot of guys screw up. When they think they got the girl they want they stop trying and get lazy. You have to realize that what you did to get her in the first place is the same thing thats going to keep her with you!

I hate to talk about her in that sense as if she is just a piece in a game. I don't mean it like that. She's amazing and I like the way her soul glows. I haven't felt this way since I met my last GF almost 2 years ago. You know that nervous feeling where you think about them all the time? I thought I said I wouldn't let myself fall in love again......

Work: Its become more and more difficult to find time to grind. I'm getting pulled in so many directions right now between work, gym and social life its been tough. Maybe when football season ends I'll be able to give my whole Sundays to Poker! I feel like I'm stuck in Purgatory (No, I'm not religious but it seems like the right word for how I feel).

On one side I can see a clear path to what I want to do with poker and where I want to go with it. On one end I feel like I can't take that path quite yet because of the previous destruction it has caused me in my life. That sounds like I'm blaming poker for my problems but I don't mean it like that. By chasing that dream while ignoring other aspects of my life it has put me in a finacial and emotional hole (Read previous posts when I got back from Vegas Bust).

On the other end I see work with my father. By working with him a lot of good things are springing up in my life and were finally establishing a relationship that we never had before. I'm digging myself out of the financial hole I put myself in and I'm gaining a lot of confidence. I sense that I have to dedicate myself more to my job, get myself out of debt then begin planing for the life I've always wanted. It doesn't mean I have to quit poker but it does mean I can't spend as much time on it as I used to until I clean up the mess I've made for myself.

At least now I can see this. In the past I would blindly jump off of a cliff and land in some very awkward positions.

Anyways, I wish you all good luck in the 50K Challenge. Wish I could've gotten in there a little more but shit happens....