i m taking a couple of days off. I ve been playing HU since christmas and it went really well, even though towards the "end" (last days) i felt i was losing focus and my game became much more swingy. I made close to 40 buyins in the time, which is nice, but given the way I played and the players I play at NL50 is actually not that great. I did so many unnecessary call downs...4b QQ, flop AKx, ch he bets i call, turn x, i check he checks, river x, i check he bets I call villain shows AJ. Imo I should just bet/fold the flop and be done with it. Besides calling way to much, I realized I wasnt aggressive enough and started slowplaying like a complete retard.
3b AK, flop A75, I check!!! wtf! turn 8. I bet he minraises, I call, river blank, I check he pushes and obviously I call and he shows 96....surprise surprise...
Right now I m very unhappy about myself, played completely retarded, didnt learn anything, didnt do any review, played when I was tired (got up to early due to the dogs), didnt listen to inner voice :) got mad everytime something didnt went 100 % my way = TILT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in poker and real life....
I started thinking about switching to a fixed bet type of poker, but seriously why should I? I should take more breaks the moment I feel my game is slipping. step away from the tables, only play when I am positiv and relaxed. I should get back into sports as well! I studied sports and I ve always been a sportsmaniac, until I had an injury in the ankle of my right foot. Diagnosis: Arthrosis and thus constant pain when I do any sort of sports that involved jumping. Given that my absolute favorite game is Beachvolleyball, not the best think to have....I cant even fucking go out and run, cause it hurts while I m running and afterwards. Due to that I gained over 20 kilos and exceed the 100kg mark right now. I m so ashamed! whiny post! ;)
I really hope that the weather becomes better, so that me and one of my dogs can go out cycling again. I ve got two siberian huskies. One 2 year old female and 9 month old male. The male just lost his balls :) poor guy....he is still to young to pull so right now its only the female. I ve got an x-back (pulling equipment) and its really lots of fun to do it.
another topic: i ve been playing dragon age on the ps3 for a while, finished it 2x and liked it quite a lot. I ve played games like baldurs gate and neverwinter nights before, thus I am quite used to their game design. The graphics werent the best, but they always do a great job in creating unique npcs imo.
I m a little bit bored by it now and I have started playing street fighter 4 and gt5 now. gt5 came along with the ps3, thus I ve played it quite a bit and its ok. I m not really a racing game fan. Regarding Street Fighter: I ve played street fighter 2 when I was young a lot :) against buddies. The game seems fun, but we will see...
anyway, I am frustrated and tilted, but I am also motivated and hope to make a breakthrough soon and that is due to this rant:
I printed it out and will print out a couple more times and hang it next to my desktop, next to my bed, in the bathroom and so on....
I know that I should just fucking grow up and study hard! Fuck I m lazy and I m mad at myself for being it!
So, if any of you feels like giving feedback I d be really happy :)
a pic of my two dogs for something nice and beautiful :)
all the best,