I don't know what I am doing

Well I will get into an introduction blog later but I will jump right into why I am starting this blog now. Lately(over the last couple months) I have seen a bad trend in my game. The upswings online don’t nearly give me the same joy that they use to. With this being said the downswings hurt like they did when I was underrolled and trying to build a roll. It just seems no matter how big or small they are they just really hurt. So to make a long story short I cashed out my online monies and am putting forth a challenge to myself to play live poker up through the ranks and really get myself familiarized with live poker. I may want to gouge out my eyes at the end of this but I think putting myself through it will really help my game. Even though the problems I have are not live they are online I really need to look at the money I am making(and losing) as a privlage that not everyone is born with and need to subconsciously respect it more than I am. So the challenge I am presenting myself is 100 bets at each limit starting at 6/12 Goals:

1)Do not move up to next level without making atleast 100 bets at the previous one starting at 6/12
2)Move from 6/12(8/16) to 15/30 to 20/40 to 30/60 to 40/80 to possibly 80/160 if I get that far
The next goals are just goals I have for myself just to better my life

3) Do not smoke at cardrooms
4)Read atleast 2 chapters everyday
5)Workout atleast 3 times a week
6)Live more productively 7)Figure out college shit before december

Well I hope this all works out for the better and I hope to post alittle more than just something no one is interested in reading. Since I am planning on going back to school I have one more goal for myself which should help my writing

8) Blog 6 times a week

K hope to be back soon