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Hi and Happy Holidays to anyone reading this!

It's been a long time since i wrote my last blog-post and a lot has happened since, however as promised this post will be a lot more positive than my last!

I took a break from poker after the runbad and whatnot and decided to have a couple of weeks of partying and vacationing with friends which was well needed! During the weeks of partying I met a girl who was a friend of a friend. We had met a few times in the past but hadn't seen eachother for a year or so. One thing led to another and we've now been dating since late july :)

As far as my university studies go I struck out on my 1½-year streak and got a 'B' the first half of the semester, but was back at an A the very next quarter-term course again! Now I'm trying to figure out what to write about in my Bachelor's degree paper in Business Economics majoring in Finance next term, hopefully something good will come to mind :)

Now to the good stuff, poker!

I have gone back to the tables again as of late, missing what I left behind last summer. I started out loosing 500bbs but have since turned it around and am now 600bbs up over roughly 3k hands and I feel that I'm almost back to where I once was when it comes to my thoughtprocess. I've also decided to stay at SEK100nl (roughly $14nl) for now and instead work on refining my skills at this limit seeing as the SEK200nl limit is not nearly as filled with fish as 100nl. I will stay at 100nl for now and keep building a roll, depending on how well it goes I might move up to 200nl when I'm close to rolled for 400nl and just build the last bit up there so the jump to 400nl isn't as big as from 100nl. 

Best of luck to all of you and Happy New Year!! /akiis

Right, long time no see DC! :)
It has been some 3 months since I started this blog - and also since my last update. So what has been happening since?

Well I moved my bankroll from FTP just a week before black friday (thank god!) to William Hill Poker. I played there for a bit but then exams got in the way and since I knew I wouldn't have time to stay on top of my game I stopped playing at WH and instead deposited 500 SEK (roughly $85) to Sweden's national pokersite (owned by the government) and started playing the lowest stakes .25/.5 just to atleast play some poker while studying. I had heard beforehand that the competition on SvS was generally pretty soft and that some regs where steadily making 13-17ptbb/100 so I thought I'd give it a go. There's no rakeback but the rake has averaged 4,3bb/100 over 70k hands which is roughly half the rake international sites take so it's not needed.

While studying during the days and playing during the nights things were going really well and I quickly expanded my BR and moved up to .5/1 where I continued crushing and increasing my roll. When the time had come for my exam I was making 26bb/100 with an EV of 28bb/100 over 22k hands at 50 and 100nl combined (remember the figures are SEK and roughly worth 1/6 of a $). pretty graph of rungood below:

So when I was done with my exam (Aced it!) I was feeling confident about my game and the weak competition and had decided to make an effort to make some real money out of poker before next semester to actually be able to use poker as a source of spendingmoney. However, since this is not a fairy tale, things did not work out as planned (or hasn't so far atleast :P).

Since the 1st of June I've played almost 47k hands - roughly 28k at 100nl and 18k at 200nl. My winnings stand at 3.22bb/100 with an EV of 13.44bb/100 overall (~400SEK in winnings, 7,1k SEK in EV).

The worst part is I told a friend that I was hoping to make some money this summer when being able to focus on poker, and he's spread the word, and all of you know the scepticism people have against pokerplayers (read: degens) - not like showing them my EV-line would make a great impression =/.

sad graph below:

So where am I now?

moneywise I decided to cash out my old WH-BR just the other day to lift my spirits and feel like I actually was making money (might have needed some spendingmoney aswell). I felt that I was most likely going to be sticking to SvS anyway so no point having a second roll somewhere else. I also felt since I'm not running that well atm I didn't want to boost my SvS-roll since I've got 40bi's for 100nl on there already out of which only 5bi's have been deposited by me.

Pokerwise I've been on the edge of getting disheartened a number o times now, by all of the *insert bad beat of your choice*. I keep telling myself that it's just a downswing and the only way to turn it around is to keep sitting down by my computer and grind while trying to make as few mistakes as possible and not let the bad luck get to me and the trust in my game.

I also feel bad that I've spent the last 2-3 weeks more or less locked up in my house due to poker and have absolutely nothing to show for it while my friends are going on trips and having a blast =/.

I hope it turns around soon, can't be filling this blog up with only whining and bitching, next entry I promise will be a positive one! ;)

That's all for this time, cheers for reading!

Akiis

Hi!

So I've decided to jump on the band wagon and start a pokerblog myself. Though I've never been a person to read blogs nor find them interesting I have started reading a few pokerblogs lately and have, to my surprise, really enjoyed the format and what it does both for readers and bloggers themselves.
 
First things first: I'm a 22 year-old living in Stockholm, Sweden, studying for a "Degree of Master of Science in Business and Economics" (i know, lah dih dah). I have played poker since late january 2010 starting at €4nl and managed to move up to €20nl in the beginning of May. At that point I took 1½months break from poker due to exams and when I came back I hit a wall basically. I have been struggling ever since (apart from 3-4 months totally off poker) at €20nl and it wasn't until earlier this year I actually got around to doing something about it.

I enlisted in coaching, and after 6 sessions I've realized two things:

1. How poorly I played and how little thought I put into my game during 2010.
2. How bad €20nl at NoiQ (entraction) were due to being infested with race-grinders (top stake for micro-promotions).
   

Two weeks back after discussing with my coach I cashed out my BR and moved to FTP. Feeling positive about things I headed out to get a feel for the games which felt refreshingly soft in comparison to the reg-infested tables at NoiQ, however the positive feeling would not last long. I soon started running poorly, and as a result of this I started playing poorly. It all built up to yesterday and my first ever (almost) $100 pot which can be seen below, after which I looked for a place to scream, to cry, to recouperate, and after some thought came to the conclusion; I'm starting a blog.                                                                                                                                                                                                       History behind this hand: I had PTR'd the villain, and he's a reg w/ almost 600k hands played on $25nl with $13k profits over 2 years. The very hand before this one I had bluffed villain off a $20 3bet-pot with AQo IP.

(Villains stats) hands: 438, vpip/pfr: 26/16, F3b: 43% (7), AgF(flop): 39% (79), raise cbet: 5% (19)                                   Full Tilt Poker $25.00 No Limit Hold'em - 5 players -

DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN: $46.61
Hero (SB): $47.51
BB: $25.00
UTG: $34.19
CO: $26.97

Pre Flop: ($0.35) Hero is SB with Q Q
UTG calls $0.25, CO calls $0.25, BTN raises to $1.35, Hero raises to $4.50, 1 fold, UTG calls $4.25, 1 fold, BTN calls $3.15

Flop: ($14.00) 5 Q 2(3 players)
Hero bets $8.75, UTG folds, BTN raises to $20, Hero raises to $43.01, BTN calls $22.11 all in

Turn: ($98.22) K(2 players - 1 is all in)

River: ($98.22) T(2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: $98.22
BTN shows T Q
Hero shows Q Q
BTN wins $95.22
(Rake: $3.00)

And when summarising my first two weeks at FTP it looked this way; (11bi below EV. fml.)

I do feel I can beat $25nl. I do admit I probably wouldn't have lost last month if I wouldn't have had any spewwy moments. I hope I am at the point now where I have finally realized how spewwing, no matter how good it feels when tilted, never gets u closer to your goal - more likely farther from it - making the climp up so much harder when u come back the next day to get out of the pit u dug for yourself spewwing.

Hopefully I'll be able to stay in my zone of tranquility from now on, stop fpsing and actually fold vs passives showing aggression. Next time I'll try to keep the post shorter aswell, I tip my hat off to any1 who actually read through my whole wall of text, wp sir!

(TLDR; my history, why I started this blog, some whine, looking bright at the future, promise not to write such a long blog post next time, ty for reading!)