July 12, 2011
Ive been playing a ton recently, i realised now i need to take more breaks, played pretty much solid for 10 hours, A game quickly turns to C game when you play that long. 7948 hands and ended down 2 buyins - wtf
my main problem is that I lose focus and just make plays I KNOW are wrong 'just to see what happens' - its like I become an observer in the hand, as if I am watching it on TV as a spectator, and just want to see what happens by the river. My thought process turns into some kind of remedial 'fuck this guy lets see what you got' attitude, which completely destroys my progress. Its like one blow up every hour or so and it just ruins the good solid work I had done during the previous hour. My mind goes blank, I feel short of breath, i make a snap judgement based on some kind of loose equity (which is usually correct, I rarely get it in without some equity, however I am not taking the time to work out if its +EV or not) its getting me frustrated! I have to set a stop watch on my phone, 55 minute sessions and a break until my mind is clear before I come back. Playing solud poker is not boring, and winning is fun!
Regardless, thats my fault anyway, I need to keep on table selecting. I had some big coolers but I also dont do myself any favours by playing too long and blowing up.
I wonder if there is a program out there that can alert me when the pot gets over X amount of size, or I get raised on any street, that can disable actions until at least 10 seconds. This would FORCE me to think about the spots more clearly instead of making snap decisions.
That must be my goal for the couple of months until it becomes habitual:
Every pot that I get raised at any point or the pot gets over 40bb I have to take at least 10 seconds to act. After the hand I must take a note on villain. If I fail to either of these things I must quit the session immediately.
In other news I got a contract for a job in Seoul today, so it looks like I will be going end of August! brrapbrrap