Lifes a Grind....

Well, Im not running so good unfortunately, but I feel like I am playing well so I wil not dispair in my quest. Anyways, Ive been pretty happy with my pay on the whole, but Ive just been getting sucked out in the big pots where I convince the semi-retard on the other end to stick all the money in with a marginal holding...

Anyways due to these factors the bonsai garden is growing and most are looking as though the wil survive and are adapting to their new surroundings...

 Unfortunely there is some bad news... Yesterda there was a ruling in the high court I think here in SA, and they have basicaly banned all online gambling as of yesterday.. This is obviously very unfortunate, but luckily there is a casino not too far from my house where the game is pretty soft as I've since observered and think I will go and apply my trade down there on a redular basis... There seem to be a good amount of foriegn tourists and bad local payers throwing money away...

Anyways will keep you all updated...

http://www.fin24.com/Business/Court-bans-online-gambling-20100824

Peace

Well today I lost my maximum, of $350 , third day in a row. From being even 3 days ago do being $1K in the can... so much for the comeback... Anyways needless to say the bonsai garden is growing daily.So 50Nl is proving a bit harder than I at first expected. Let me put in some more hard work before hitting the tables, taking notes, watching vids and reading posts on DC. Hopefully I can get things back on track before the train completely derails... And If that doesnt work should hopefully be having another session with Mr TTRL, so hopefully we can get the train back on the tracks and finish the month off in awesome style....

I feel like the more I am learning the more confused I am getting, but hopefully GC can get my brain back on track and gutting fish regularly. I really like his style and hopefully can adapt my game to suit his technique's....

Anyways will let you know how things progress.... & I will post pictures over the weekend and show my graph aswell the Tilting Bonsai trees... PEACE & LOVE

So so far this month, 32K hands, and sitting about $380 down, Not too bad, had a coaching session from Mr TTRL himself and have felt a marked improvement in my game. Unfortunately things didnt go well today. Played about 4K hands and lost $320, So I was in the green today for the 1st time this month almost but then ran my AA UTG into Villian open shipping KKUTG+1 flopped an aces and still went on to loose... Then made a sick call to a player who 4betJammed after I 3b with A9o I sucked it up and called, he Showed JTs and made a run with the money..... I was pretty stoked with the call though... I feel my hand reading skills are definately improving daily often being able to narrow villian down to exact cards within his range... Tried to make a sick bluff today on a player BVB. (I had a not on him saying he didnt raise TP IP) So Iraise KJ flop comes Q55, i bet he raises. I call. Turns a 5 he fires, And I raise him, thinking He cant have a Q here and will lay down all pcoket pairs smaller than that... Anyways I end up showing the river which comes 2 and vilian shows me 5-2s.

Anyways none of this really makes me that bleak(p$ssd), I mean I'd prefer it not to happen, but I understand the nature of the beast. The other reason I dont really get bleak is that Im pretty much in the 'green' zone 24/7. I just cant handle the situaions if Im not high, It becomes all to stressfull and the amounts of money on the tables start affecting my play. Anyways What does Piss the fucking living shit out of me is me playing bad. I know when I'm not playing my A game and need to just get up and walk away. Today was a Prime example, I was up 3BI and finished down 6. WTF. Anyways Beyond all the bad beats I have recieved this week and mainly due to being really pissed off with myself for making mistakes or playing in other players traps, I found something beautifull to do with all this Tilt and anger which I dont feel is good for the universe as a whole as I'm projecting negative energy . I decided to go buy a tree from the local nursery and create a bonsai tree as I didnt realy know what to do with myself, I felt like banging my head agaisnt a wall Until hopefully the wall moved out the way. 

Anyways I walked around for about an hour, until I found1 that would be suitable for a bonsai and took it home, chopped it up a bit and soon will have a awesome looking bonsai that will live for many years. Again on Saturday after a bad day I went to another nursery and bought another tree and now have 2 Bonsais made out of Tilt. Hopefully I can keep up the trend should be off the the nursery first thing tomorow morning before hitting the tables... Anyways Hope I didnt bore you, rabmled on a bit, smoked about 4 bongs during this... Peace

Hi to anyone who might be so bored that they have ended up reading this....

MY story is a bit long, a bit complicated and rather fucking boring, So I'll try skip all that out....

So where are we at present day?

I play between 65-80K hands on average per month. The most I've done is 110K. I have been playing mainly for rake back so volume was important at the micros. Now however I have entered the realms of 50Nl and have been greeted with mixed results. Anyways lets just say for now, my results are not outstanding. Last month I was down 2.1K @50Nl and managed to finish a meager -$389 down after 65K hands. 

So that was the good news... Unfortunately I havent been able to carry that momentum forward with me this month but hopefully the extra time and effort will start paying off soon. Currently I'm sitting after 21K hands im 450$  in the fucking red...

I think my biggest leak that I have discovered is my inability to put Villian on a actual range given the action and not analysing flop textures properly based on ranges... I am as I say putting a tremendous amount of effort and energy into my game so hopefully we will be reaping the harvest soon....

Anyways peace-

AC1D