So so far this month, 32K hands, and sitting about $380 down, Not too bad, had a coaching session from Mr TTRL himself and have felt a marked improvement in my game. Unfortunately things didnt go well today. Played about 4K hands and lost $320, So I was in the green today for the 1st time this month almost but then ran my AA UTG into Villian open shipping KKUTG+1 flopped an aces and still went on to loose... Then made a sick call to a player who 4betJammed after I 3b with A9o I sucked it up and called, he Showed JTs and made a run with the money..... I was pretty stoked with the call though... I feel my hand reading skills are definately improving daily often being able to narrow villian down to exact cards within his range... Tried to make a sick bluff today on a player BVB. (I had a not on him saying he didnt raise TP IP) So Iraise KJ flop comes Q55, i bet he raises. I call. Turns a 5 he fires, And I raise him, thinking He cant have a Q here and will lay down all pcoket pairs smaller than that... Anyways I end up showing the river which comes 2 and vilian shows me 5-2s.
Anyways none of this really makes me that bleak(p$ssd), I mean I'd prefer it not to happen, but I understand the nature of the beast. The other reason I dont really get bleak is that Im pretty much in the 'green' zone 24/7. I just cant handle the situaions if Im not high, It becomes all to stressfull and the amounts of money on the tables start affecting my play. Anyways What does Piss the fucking living shit out of me is me playing bad. I know when I'm not playing my A game and need to just get up and walk away. Today was a Prime example, I was up 3BI and finished down 6. WTF. Anyways Beyond all the bad beats I have recieved this week and mainly due to being really pissed off with myself for making mistakes or playing in other players traps, I found something beautifull to do with all this Tilt and anger which I dont feel is good for the universe as a whole as I'm projecting negative energy . I decided to go buy a tree from the local nursery and create a bonsai tree as I didnt realy know what to do with myself, I felt like banging my head agaisnt a wall Until hopefully the wall moved out the way.Â
Anyways I walked around for about an hour, until I found1 that would be suitable for a bonsai and took it home, chopped it up a bit and soon will have a awesome looking bonsai that will live for many years. Again on Saturday after a bad day I went to another nursery and bought another tree and now have 2 Bonsais made out of Tilt. Hopefully I can keep up the trend should be off the the nursery first thing tomorow morning before hitting the tables... Anyways Hope I didnt bore you, rabmled on a bit, smoked about 4 bongs during this... Peace